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Oh, I guess I need a title....going through...pt2

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on March 10, 2016 - 3:51pm

Thanks to those who responded to my last blog. If you haven't read it, you still can. but I wanted to make a new one with some new information...well, I'm kindof winging it as I get my thoughts together here, so bare with me plz.

I have something I want to get off my chest. I want to tell someone here that might actually know how to help me with this (here as in real life). I waited many years because I did something that, while you folks might not judge me, others here would have...I'm not so much afraid of this now, but it's the fact that I don't think anyone will be able to help or even remember this thing or why I acted so peculiar that day.

And my questions all kindof go back to that day or those 2 days and like what exactly happened. when did they happen exactly? (I'd buried this for so long, it's getting a blur) Me and "this person" seem to be the only ones who know about what happened those nights and I couldn't get straight answers with this person...and even what I did get, was somewhat differing accounts of it! I still think this person was wrong in some things, but could've been right in other things that I forgot. I wanna stop and say something to the Rmy but...I think it's just my biased opinion and it might not do any good to share, so I won't...for now anyway.

What else?...I think I will just be pushing aside any worries. I think I know what I need to do to stop worrying (nothing harmful, i assure you) although I do have doubts about some of my other methods of moving on...not physically harmful, probably not even mentally harmful...but I just don't know. that's where I wish I had an answer...although maybe it's simply an answer of just being patient.

Ok, so the other weird thing about last night is that, "this person" and I talked about this person's friend and I was trying to recall the last name...couldn't get it....but last night, THAT FB account popped up!!! like, seriously, what are the odds!! (I mean, yeah, I've been blind before, but i swear, why couldn't i find this when I actually could...well, it possibly might not have made a difference really. I guess i was just wracking my brains trying to remember and it could've given me some ease. ah well!)

In other news, it's freezing again so maybe that's why I don't feel so sad. The warmer weather was bringing back some memories, which sucks though, because I like that weather!!!

Anyhoo! I'm gonna stop this now so I can get me some water. lol Nice, refreshing (freezing) water! ;)

Hope you all are doing well!