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on March 10, 2016 - 12:03am

Not sure how to say it...going through something right now. I'm confused, I'm ...well, I'm too worried now to be sad anymore, ah, it's probably me overthinking again...I'm just...it's just been a crazy weird sortof time for awhile, crying for days and then tonight something weird happened. Basically, I mention this person, who's the muse of the tears and whom I haven't talked to in a long while, (to a "stranger", not someone this person could know) and then this person like drops off the face of the earth! All the public accounts suddenly gone! (I started thinking of this person about a week ago and all this stuff was still there). Hmm. again, Idk how to share it, the connection I had with this person, or if I even need to...just send me some good vibes, prayers, and whatnot! It's really weird and I'm like waiting for a phone call, or I'm hoping not to have one...omg!! like what could have happened!?! It could be nothing or it could be the worst!!! Why can't I get answers?...do I even want them now?...I always feel like answers are important, good or bad, but ...

ohhh I was trying to move on!!! Ok, I suppose I could just push this all aside and hope for the best. Why, why, all this weird stuff to interrupt this grieving process!!!??? I don't know how long I can wait for the answers...maybe, just maybe this is a sign that it IS over...that I just have to give the f*ck up! It certainly would be for the best...I just feel like something has been ripped from me and I'm so very confused.

Ok, well I'll try to sleep and maybe tomorrow will be better.

I don't usually post things like this but...it's like been coming to this for awhile now. I think I just need to "scream" somewhere. I trust you'll be forgiving or idk...i don't really know what to expect. Quite frankly, I don't give a damn anymore! (well, of course I do but) I'm just ...I'm just gonna go cool down now.

Love you guys! I'm Not Okay (I promise)...no, i'm not even joking...I'll be fine, seriously (I hope). What's the (and why I love Frank)

the lyric..."I need you, i need you i need you ...i need you to know, I'm alright" :D -She's the Prettiest Girl at the party and she can prove it with a solid right hook (Thanks Frank!)

Best to all of you!