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jesus fuck i feel like shit (this shits rude asf and tw)

i cant sleep
my singular organ that i really just want to cut out of me is trying actively to kill me and i cant take the meds that make it chill the fuck out because it has caffeine in it
fuck i still have tits

i got temp banned on a discord server for 10 fucking days because one of the mods likes the fact that he has fucking power and he dead ass tricked me

using fucking mcr

he warned me because i said the word "drug"

3 warns your temp banned

im fucking pissed at him,
im annoyed because the other two warns were me being a dumb ass piece of shit

god i hope the world ends soon
im so fucking

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mmmmm dysphoria and being afab (idk maybe tmi or sum)

So like im afab maybe trans ftm idfk i just know i dont like being a chick

i also have an excessive amount of something i so desperately want to remove using top surgery

like baggy asf shirts dont even help to hide them

i dont have a binder
and i just looked up the pricing for fucking binders on gc2b theyre like 40 fuckin dollars
and like id have to fucking measure myself to figure out what size i need and like i just

can i just get them off myself?
like theres a jigsaw in my dads garage

no

but like i cant even fucking use ace bandages (ik ur not supposed to) it wraps around like once and a

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its been a year (technically)

So like someone awesome pointed out that its been 1 year today since i joined the mcr site

it says half a year on this account because of the whole uh

because of stuff

ive been here a year though

so like idk happy anniversary to me?
idk
it makes me happy tho

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EVERY ONE HERE READ THIS IDC WHAT YOURE DOING STOP AND READ THIS

My PSA for today, tomorrow, and every day after that.

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I want to learn to metal scream.

Mythicality cosplay is too fucking incredible for this world and they need to be protected (though they could whoop ass themself) no matter what.

oh btw im gay as fuck

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(tw #2) (serious trigger warning) DO NOT COMMENT

my fault
my fault
my fault

im not in control of him
i didnt make him say those things
i didnt tell him to act that way

my fault
my fault
my fault

i wasnt even there
we hadnt talked for weeks
its who he is

im horrible
im horrible
im horrible

he couldnt wait to get out
he laughed about it
wanted to write a song

im wrong
im wrong
im wrong

if i had just been more
something wouldve been different
he wouldve cared

im an idiot
im an idiot
im an idiot

there were signs
he wasnt telling the whole truth
i just didnt look

im useless
im useless
im useless

i dont want to fuck
i dont want to do drugs
i dont

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(tw)

i cant feel my lungs anymore
they went numb after the first few minutes under the water
theres fire
somewhere
in my stomach, my chest, creeping up my neck and out of my limbs
the water is so calm
so cold
but also
horrifying
its a nightmare
wake up
cmon
wake up
wake up
the water is everywhere
my eyes wont open
my arms wont try to swim
my legs wont kick
wake up
WAKE UP
the fire consumes me
my body is made of it
i cant get out without having the burn scars
wake
up
i manage to get my mouth open
all i can manage is a gurgled scream before the fire holds me hostage
i cant move
i cant do anything
im

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bvb restitch these wounds

THIS IS MY LIVE REACTION
(i type as i listen)
I DO NOT REFLECT THE OPINIONS OF ANY OTHER BVB SOLDIERS
THIS IS MY OPINION
enjoy this absolute shitpost:

....

the outcasts (reborn):
EEEEE starting the album off strong kinda creepy but fokin vibey fuck yeah we the black veil brides

...

we stitch these wounds:
holy fuck lies screams ok andy we see you
oh shit the guitar oh fuck everything
yesssss omfg i love can we just say yes
aight that was pretty chill
liked that

...

beautiful remains:
hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
(*translation* GUITAR OMFG

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August 15

ok something is gonna happen

its supposedly not bad
but something BIG
as in

everything is gonna change

thats all i know

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August 15

Be ready
as ready as you can....

maybe nothing will happen

but theres no escape if it does

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