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Leaving This Here...

So in case I just forget to come here to check on people, which happens frequently, I don't know if any of you have a twitter account but I'll leave my handle here. @HauntedKatLives

I'm on there pretty much every day even though I lack any reason to be most of the time. I just follow too many celeb accounts I'd feel bad about not keeping up with. Also I hate facebook and I don't take enough pictures to be frequent on instagram. So...twitter it is.

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Kinda struggling

But I think I've been in denial about it for a while. So I figured I could try to open up on here. Not sure if it'll help or not but at this point it's worth a try. I went through a pretty tough rude awakening around a year ago when I thought a friend I had through the internet was being real with me and then when the truth came out I was blindsided and angry at myself more than anything because I trusted this person with a lot of personal experiences I told them.

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Long Time No See

It's been a long time since I've had a want to revisit my blogs on here or post anything new. Honestly, I might have forgotten how often I used to do this. But I suppose the idea of continuing to visit this community while the band was broken up was just too painful. It felt like I was holding onto false hope that they would come back, sooner rather than later.

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1. Any scars? None that are actually visible.
2. Crush? Nope, not for many years now.
3. Kissed anyone? Does the cheek count? *shakes head* Guess not.
4. Coke or Pepsi? Depends on my mood, usually Pepsi though.
5. Someone you hate? Probably between my dad and my aunt, yet I'm trying to keep that hatred thing under control. Let's just call it a strong dislike.
6. Best Friends? My mom and my dog. It's hard to make friends here.
7. Have you ever done alcohol or drugs? No drugs but I do drink occasionally.

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I'm living in a sea of disappointment

I feel like everything that was good now is just another part of my past. I can't listen to any...and I mean ANY current music right now because it just doesn't seem to be as good as years' past. All of my favorite tv shows and movies and books are just that...memories. I suppose I'm in a funk when it comes to anything current and I'm starting to wonder if there is a reason for that. Have I completely shut myself down since MCR disbanded? Am I too busy comparing what's out today with what they've done? I don't think so.

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It's that time again...

To wish the most amazing creative down-to-earth person, Gerard Way a very Happy Birthday. I was gonna buy a cake but then I realized that I would be eating the entire thing in your honor (Bad idea!) so perhaps a cupcake would be better. So if anyone asks me how my day is today I will say that today is an exception and I'm doing really great because in my mind I'm celebrating you.

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I'm Beginning To Realize Something...

No one in my life, my circle of contacts seem to care that much when I'm suffering. It's not surprising in the slightest but it might contribute as to the real reason why I have so much trouble with a) making and b) holding onto friends. Maybe I'm just not a likeable person? Who knows. I'm generally pretty nice and caring and will give advice to anyone who needs it but god forbid whenever I need it in return no one has anything to say except the generic 'I'm sorry that things are hard for you' or a sad pitiful look in my direction. Am I just not worth the time to make feel better?

Yes, the

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Living In A Ghost Town

I know that I've been away from here for quite some time. Little did I expect that the next time I would post anything to this website would be after the band broke up. I needed some time to let that information digest. I'm...still not there yet. I want to be the 'good fan'. The 'upbeat fan' that knows everything will be alright, but if I was I would be a liar, a fraud, I wouldn't be myself. My Chemical Romance was pretty much the only thing lighting my way in this pitch-blackness that I call life.

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Name Meaning (Susan) It sounded interesting. XD

1. Susan's tend to be wonderful girls! If you've got one hold on tight! Susan's are extremely fun, caring, intelligent, very funny, beautiful, and make the best friends and girlfriends ever! They are the epitome of classyness!

2. If you have a Susan, you are one lucky character! Susans are generally smart, musical, and generous. Never take advantage of a Susan; they also bite. Unless provoked, a Susan can make a great companion!

3. a woman of true beauty and bodily perfection. Susan's love being in love but can never get the guy she truly wants.

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