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Death of the robot with human hair

on April 19, 2018 - 5:24pm

So I think I got stood up. I feel so hopeless now and it sucks, I haven’t felt this down in a long time.

My friend in the u.k. Hasn’t replied to my emails in over a week; I’m scared she “kicked the bucket”. And my other friend here the one that stood me up, I feel like she doesn’t really like me more than a friend.

I know most of y’all will just tell me to get over it and grow up. I just hate how I’m always being used.

Life sucks, people suck. I’m done trying

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Update on Life

on March 4, 2018 - 5:46am

OK here is post #2

Soooo Other than my rant I just posted things are going well. I got a new puppy after I got out of the Hospital on the 9th of February.

I think he came home around Valentine's day?

So I was totally surprised by a new puppy.

His name is Bentley and he is a Golden Retriever.[ he will be my 2nd and replacing my older Golden Autumn after she dies. :'( ]

My old girl is 12 years old and in really bad health.

So I'm happy with my little pup.

Also I put in an application to Kroger back in January?

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The End to a Toxic relationship Revisited

on March 4, 2018 - 5:32am

Ok so I have two blogs to post this is the first one.

Anyways lets get to the blog. I have an Ex named Staci who is super Toxic, and is just plain out a Psycho.

She treats me like shit, and expects me to be nice to her and give her everything she wants.

( Example she calls me for phone xxx) or she wants to hangout with me, but never follows through with her plans.

Also she lies to me a lot and says she is just joking with me; I can't stand people like that, because after a while, you can never tell if they are being serious or just pulling your leg again.

So She asked me out a while back,

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Update

on February 10, 2018 - 3:11am

Hey guys I haven't been here in a while.

I just got out of the hospital yesterday. I went in on Monday.

But I'm a lot better now, and I got a lot of resources I never knew about.

Also my Doctor from the Hospital wants me to do IOP.

So I'll be doing Intensive Out Patient for about a Month but it should be alright.

There was a cute Emo Girl there, but I didn't get to talk to her much, she left the day after I was admittted ( Tuesday Morning).

So yeah there's that

Anyways I am going to a Nascar Race on the 25th, and I am Excited for that.

My friends were blowing up my phone while I was gone but

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Snow Storm Part 2

on January 16, 2018 - 12:12pm

Well we are supposed to get more snow down here in Georgia.

It's been a Brutal Cold Winter this Year, with several waves of Arctic Air and cold temperatures in the Teens F.

Like tonight the low is going to be 16 F. Which Our record low since I have been alive ( I'm 26) was a few years ago around 6 F.

So I'm hoping that Winter doesn't last all the way till March or April this year.

Cuz usually for Georgia we Get an Early Spring around Mid March Early April.

And the temps usually hit 60's to low 70's F.

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Friday December 08, 2017 
| Posted by: BlueBurnsBlack

The Distance and my Heart to sand, flowing through the hourglass I fall to pieces I can't let go; of all the times I never said goodbye.

Just say that it's over, it's over and she's gone.

Well yeah that's basically how I'm feeling right now.

A mixed up cluster of Confusion, Depression, and Despair.

My Ex from 2014 of whom we have continued to be friends for a while basically told me I only like you as a friend and I never want to date you.

So I'm like ok....

That basically devastated me, given the fact we never met in person and she doesn't know me that well.

But it is what it is.

I hate it that every time I meet some one they either "Friendzone" me or "Ghost" me.

It happens far too much.... I guess it's because no one really wants to date some one with a Mental Illness?

Fuck it.

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Sunday November 19, 2017 
| Posted by: BlueBurnsBlack

Hey guys, so I’ve Moved since I last posted idr if i posted that or not.

Anyways the holidays are coming. I got some stuff for myself already, but I kinda have a list.

I’m going to round 2 of Thanksgiving this afternoon ( My Dads side of the family). So yeah how are you guys doing?

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Wednesday November 01, 2017 
| Posted by: BlueBurnsBlack

Where are you? And I’m so sorry I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight.

We’re looking up at the same night sky, keep pretending the sun will not rise, we could be together for one more night somewhere, somehow, if only I could find you.

Please hang on tight........ I’ll see you through the night, this static contact; is pulling us apart.....

Just wake me when it’s over, when the curtains raise its time to move on. Exit now credits rolling, the girl who stole my heart, the one that got away....... ( the one that got away)......

You know me too well, you’re sorry and I can tell, scene fading fade to black, your acting all this out; again. I know it’s tomorrow, your waiting for something to feel alive.

If you catch my drift here I’m trying to say I’m sorry for the hurt I caused you back in 2014. I never meant to do what I did; my friend pressured me into what I did.

If I could have you back you know I’d take you back in a heart beat.

But I know you’re happy with whoever you’re with now.

I just wanted to say I miss you.

If by chance you do read this or are still on this site S.R.

Then this is my apology.

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Tuesday September 19, 2017 
| Posted by: BlueBurnsBlack

Does anyone want to be friends outside of here?

I know the Friend Request and the Messaging doesn't work so I was wondering if anyone would like to be friends on Facebook? Instagram? Snapchat? or Email?

If not that's cool we can talk here in the blogs other wise let me know.

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Tuesday September 19, 2017 
| Posted by: BlueBurnsBlack

Does anyone want to be friends outside of here?

I know the Friend Request and the Messaging doesn't work so I was wondering if anyone would like to be friends on Facebook? Instagram? Snapchat? or Email?

If not that's cool we can talk here in the blogs other wise let me know.

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Friday September 15, 2017 
| Posted by: BlueBurnsBlack

So I have Bipolar 2 and I'm going through really bad Mania, cuz I'm like trying to buy shit I don't need, and wanting to constantly do something, but avoiding work. I've had a few anxiety attacks over the past few days as well. I'm not "Sui" at all but I'm not Psychotic either. I'm just kinda hovering right at the line of breaking into Psychotic mania.