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untitled...because I wish I had that song on the new MCRX album. :P

on October 7, 2016 - 7:37pm

Mrs. Corrigan, thanks for the new reply on my post from a few days back. Yeah, having yet another one of those days where I fear I messed up by either my words or my actions. (And I was doing SO GOOD too!..haha kindalike charbars recent post. Hey my friend!

Ok, I don't really lie singling people out in my posts, but I dont really mind when others do it to me, so I hope y'all dont mind me. Um, so where was I?

oh yes, doing stupid stuff. Not really, but idk. I am afraid again. But rather than dwell and make things worse, welli came here (haha so sorry! :P ) No because I know it's safe here.

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not that kind of girl/mcrx listening

on October 1, 2016 - 12:02pm

hey so anybody else hear this?

oh oh! so "not that kindof girl" there is a reference of this in "gun" (Conventional Weapons) yeah, i am listening again now and heard it and looked up the song. :D

"now baby...isn't it crazy" (the latter part being in gun)

*currently listening to living with ghosts* :D

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thanks and feeling better

on September 28, 2016 - 11:56pm

feeling good actually!

shout outs to slalienbassist and cheriselynn for commenting on my last post. thanks. You guys rock! :D

So, a little follow-up

spam filter keeps triggering . post is in the comments.

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we ALL have bad days. hehe

on September 28, 2016 - 3:31pm

I'm feeling very oober frustrated and upset right now! :(
I just want to scream and curse and do all these things that I don't really want to do!

so i won't

but I'm ...and by upset, I kindof mean sad and alone-like...and like everything I touch i break. like I'm helpless and hopeless...


I'm really not this person, so I hate that I'm having such a day! :(

feeling like i keep saying the wrong things to the wrong people ...but I mean, despite not actually coming to the disaster I imagine in my head and panic about,...well, the silence scares me too. gah! I hate silence!!


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tying up things...woah this might be long, hopefully not too long

on September 21, 2016 - 8:57am

Ok well gee! We are getting a lot ofposters lately, that's great! But it means I had better tie this up quicklythen. So, if you read my last post, well I mentioned how upset I was about this friend , or "friend" said something hurtful.



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Wednesday August 31, 2016 
| Posted by: msunevershoulde...

After like 3 months of having minimal appetite, well, my appetite has returned over the last two days ...

AND THERE'S NO FOOD IN THE HOUSE! wahhhhh!!!! :( Yes, the only thing is meat, meat, meat. And, ok, while I am fine with a little meat, I NEED my fruits and veggies too!...(actually, now that I'm writing this, i realize there are a few cans of beans. oops! ...but I mean, I need my GREENs, and like carrots, potatoes...)

and I want grapes! ;)

that is all.

haha just kidding. ok, well, not really. There really isn't much to say, and I guess I still haven't figured out how or what I was trying to say the other day. hmm...idk!

Although, maybe, maybe, I miss the life I had a few months ago...but I am feeling a little bit more sense of calm right now...if still a bit nostalgic...if still a bit lonely...but...but i suppose it's better than being manic??!

(hehe although manic is pretty fun and funNY!...but it isn't really fun coming down from it.)

Maybe this is what I was eluding introspective look at my emotional states over the last few months, with some new uh, stimulus added? Yeah. I's good and it's ...scary? I think I'm kindof an extrovert-ish...but I like don't have the full confidence in it (i mean, i DO stuff, but then I doubt it) um...and also, I don't have the ENERGY to always be fact, I think I fell sick last night, as a result of TOO MUCH extroverting...too much talking (texting) and worrying about stuff. :(

ahh, hmm...I might regret this post now...but...ok, well it isn't really personal. I guess these are pretty common thoughts, right? So...I trust my Rmy soldiers! :) hmm, what else can i say though...

oh! but so like, I feel like I've "gotta be on" and like on all the time...because that's who I've made myself to be, and I can't stop?? but...but i think I might have slowed down...

speaking of slowing down...i gotta run. :(

last thing-
only like 23 days now until the re-release!!! yes, I'm pretty excited! :D

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Saturday August 27, 2016 
| Posted by: msunevershoulde...

Hey all!

Well, it was really nice to read up on the latest entries. Not that it's nice that you have any troubles, but...well, I've just been on an emotional roller coaster myself as of late, (actually, I've been on a literal roller coaster recently too) and well, it's just comforting to be around others who understand. :)

I AM here because I'm just reaching out. idk i really can't bring myself to form any real thoughts about specifics though.

well, maybe just that age certainly doesn't mean everything. I mean, we still grow, even as adults. Go through hardships, pain...but also joys and meet good people who share in these things...
these things can change us, or can make us stronger in the things that we value and hold dear.

I've just been really doing some self awareness thinking lately, and trying to understand these ups and downs and not only the emotional differences, but the mental and physical one as well. It's quite interesting...
yet, you can also get a bit caught up in it too! ahh! I mean, like hours can pass without you even knowing it...and now that my house guests have left...well, "keeping up appearances" has been a bit of a struggle for me. Like...I know I shouldn't get lazy and get out of habit...

idk. ahhh this is stupid...ok, not stupid just...i feel like I'm wasting more time now so, I'll have to leave it at that.

I always like to leave with some positive note. Not that I'm feeling particularly negative right now, but I just can't seem to find the words either. Just...oh, about from this song I shared with someone yesterday...

"I see friends shaking hands.
Saying, "How do you do?"
They're really saying,
"I love you". ....and I think to myself, what a wonderful world"


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Thursday July 21, 2016 
| Posted by: msunevershoulde...

Wow! I didn't realize I could come on the Community section until right now. haha

Well, I just wanted to say that I hope everyone is taking this recent news okay. I think it's good that they announced the truth. Should it have been sooner? Probably, but at least they did it. And personally, I thought it was all very exciting, although I knew not to get my hopes high. And, I mean, all the former members are doing their own things right now so...I think they just really still want to be a part of MCR, in spirit...they just can't go back to the tolls that the process to create took on them, and so this was sortof, maybe, a hoorah for them...a "hip hip horray" for them, if you will. ;) (if they were even involved. maybe it was just Warner. but I'm thinking they were involved.)

well, just take care Killjoys! Just remember, we are still the MCRmy..."TO THE END"!!!! XD


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Saturday May 14, 2016 
| Posted by: msunevershoulde...

Happy "birthday" to me! Exactly one year ago, I ordered my first MCR tshirt and picked up The Black Parade at my local Walmart (all they had WAS the censored one, which is quite funny when you get to "Blood". :P)

To mark the occasion, today I wore that shirt and played the full BP album, and then I took The Black Parade is Dead to my folks and proceeded to watch this with my Mom. Isn't she sweet? :) Dad even peeked in a little!

I really want some striped sleeves like Gerard wears. HotTopic doesn't seem to carry these, so I will have to look elsewhere.

What else? Oh, well, the rest of this week and next will be various anniversaries for when I bought Danger Days as well as Bullets. I guess I could pop in and say what special thing I did on those days. I have some ideas (23rd is kindof an MCR anniversary even, so I find that so awesome that we share that day-it was their first "on the road" 2003??? Yeah, I will be watching that concert for sure, as well as Vampires May Never Hurt You video and other Bullets things.)

Well, I guess that is enough for now. Hope you all are well!

Oh! But actually, the reason today is so important is because had I not picked up that cd, and then the next, and then the next and proceeded to watch interviews and read testamonies of the fans and to....okay, well, once I started down that path, I soon enough came to know this Rmy. And although I joined talk first, Z...was in fact, one of my first friends here. And then came Lisa and then....well, idk if I should list them all out because I don't want to miss anyone and I don't want newcomers to feel excluded...

Z took me underwing and showed me what this community was all about though. And Lisa...well she might not even see this anyway...well, she and I have talked almost every day since last summer.

I haven't been coming here so much lately, but I am still just as much a supporter as I have always been. You guys are the best and I know you take good care of each other. If you DO want to see more of me, you can sign up for a account, and/or what you SHOULD also do issubmit your MCR stories to and join our forum there! I hope this doesnt get rejected by the spam blocker. I may have to put those in the comments section)

Ok well, i am gonna bid you adieu. So long and goodnight!

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Friday April 08, 2016 
| Posted by: msunevershoulde...

on repeat on

found this beauty

"aweoh you guys are gonna make me blush!" :D (Gee)

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Wednesday April 06, 2016 
| Posted by: msunevershoulde...

I posted something more in the comments to that last post. Just read this, then go there.