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Frank Interviews are just the BEST!!! Mentions MCR and the fans!! :D

on February 18, 2017 - 12:00am

Another share. Does anyone else like watch as many of these as they can?? I just love, well, I love a good interview in general, but I just really like these Frank ones, and this interviewer is pretty good too. (I'm a little biased, I like listening to the English accent...guess I like listening to Frank's accent too tbh.) Anyway, if you haven't seen/listened, I would highly recommend. Our fandom, our still enthusiastic and large fandom is mentioned...ok, I need to finish it still. Eeek!!! haha Always turns me into a schoolgirl. I love being part of something so big!

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I'm Ba-ack! Oh and happy Valentine's Day?? :D

on February 14, 2017 - 10:01pm

Yeah, back from my trip. Ohhh, it was too short! But it's alright. I missed the ...well, honestly, I missed my front porch to sit out and enjoy the sun. Haha! Thing is, back home, the days are shorter and with home responsibilities back on me, I have less and less time to get out!

Alright, enough whining! So, yeah Valentine's Day?? (for like 12 more minutes I guess) ...oh, 10 now. Oh heck! It will probably be the 15th by the time I finish this. yes? no? haha

I really don't have anything to say. Actually, I have too much to say, but I wouldn't even know where to start.

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Taking a little hiatus (vacation time!! XD)

on January 5, 2017 - 4:18pm

First of all,

Happy New Year 2017 everybody!

This is going to be a short post because I'm getting very busy, but I just wanted to let all my friends know and this was the quickest way to do it! ;) Of course you all are my friends just for being awesome you! XD But some folks actually read my posts. hehe :P

Anyway, just part of the reason I've been quiet lately and will be quiet (yes, I know I'm usually pretty quiet on this site, but less on others) is because I'm planning a little vacation for a few weeks at the end of the month (sorry to those of whom I'm springing this on for the first time

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wo-oah! what are the odds!?! Happy Anniversary to me!!!

on December 22, 2016 - 12:08pm

I didn't even intend to come on today, but I just...was...bored?? "bored" really. I needed a distraction. Anyway, what ARE the odds that today is my one full year anniversary on this site!?! Well, I already did my thanks and recognitions last week, so I won't say much...honestly, I wish I could be more enthusiastic, but kindof going through a rough/sad/scary patch in my life right now...but trying to stay optimistic!!! Have some friends and my family is super supportive. <3

Guess there really isn't much more to say, just

Keep running!


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Eek! Feeling all sentimental! ((again?!) but anniversary!!!

on December 17, 2016 - 10:52am

It's my one year anniversary!!! Well, it is in about a week (oh, somehow I thought it was closer) At any rate, I suppose we will all get busy with holiday stuff and or other stuff, so I am making my post today.

but first, I have to say thanks to the comment on my last post (you know who you are) gah! That was soo nice! Like, I definitely don't hear stuff like that every day, so it is much appreciated.

Ok, now then, I also want to shoutout to those who commented on my first post.



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Saturday December 17, 2016 
| Posted by: msunevershoulde...

It's my one year anniversary!!! Well, it is in about a week (oh, somehow I thought it was closer) At any rate, I suppose we will all get busy with holiday stuff and or other stuff, so I am making my post today.

but first, I have to say thanks to the comment on my last post (you know who you are) gah! That was soo nice! Like, I definitely don't hear stuff like that every day, so it is much appreciated.

Ok, now then, I also want to shoutout to those who commented on my first post. Grcememeise, Marianamcr, and Z (haha, hun I can never remember your username on here and dont want to botch it publicly to attempt) Anyway, hard to imagine after this long year that I met the other two that day and how far all of us have come! I love and appreciate everyone I have met on here (and haven't) you all contribute to what makes this place great and I have really been spoiled with this (and talk) being my first online communities, you really truly are one of a kind and that's what keeps me coming back.

Thank you all for being a part of my great year. Peace and much love!


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Monday December 12, 2016 
| Posted by: msunevershoulde...

Ok, I will live, but this really hit me tonight (er, this early morning). Was just beginning to sit down to read the blogs of BVBRyanMCR. And I really liked the format you used and that ...well crap! I hope it wasn't supposed to be a secret...but I'm a little bummed! And I hope you see this and come back!! (well, part of me. The good part only wants to wish you well. :) )

Well, so I will just repeat what I said in the comments (well i'll try). I'm nearing the end of a chapter in my life (perhaps that is why this struck me so deep), and also a beginning. I wanted to use this blogging format to maybe tell my story some day. Maybe not necessarily here, but somewhere. So, well let's try it. Since you inspired me to check out this song, or "song", well that will be my first one...and i'll go from there.

Today's mood: mixed of mellon collie and peace (not sure the mood title. :P)

Today's favorite song: 'Bowie' by Flight of the Concords

Today's Movie: I'll put Rudolph the Rednosed Reindeer (although I watched it Saturday)

Dream Journal: Ok, so I'll put last night's. What I remember is being in a HUGE lecture hall, no auditorium. However, it was a gym class. My high school gym teacher was there, but I was supposed to lead the lesson with this auditorium filled with crazy high school students. I was a nervous wreck! I was like a substitute for the day so I hadn't had any time to plan or anything. And there was chaos and several activities going on at once and I remember some getting dressed up behind the curtain for the "talent show" that was to be held later that night and I was thinking I'd get roped into going to that somehow...somehow I ended up in one of the auditorium seats and was a student again and I felt like such a failure because I couldn't do it...(OMG!!---

The Story: The story is that I'm feeling like a bit of a failure in real life too! I'm struggling to do even the few simple things I need to do every day. Today was the first day I sortof got back on track, but it was a good weather day too, or something. But yeah, I've been in a funk and just feeling a real lack of enthusiasm in these day to day things, getting sucked into social media to escape and going hours without eating and then just eating small (today I ate full and on time meals though. yay!) but then sleeping at like 4am (yeah, remember all of my posts in the last few months?? phew! can't believe how long it's been...)

But now, I feel the fog is being lifted again! I hope I can continue with this...although I haven't really had much success per se, at least I'm focused. (i hope)

The 'fun' fact about me: um, I just purchased markers from another country. wtf right?! hehe but they're cool! if I can figure them out! ha! (blending markers-is this primarily a UK thing? because I had never heard of them until recently)

something something something. I'm terrible at catchphrases. This seems to be my sendoff lately with another group though.

K, bye!

I've been mocked for it though...I don't give a sh*t! hehe


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Saturday December 03, 2016 
| Posted by: msunevershoulde...

As the title says. Hope ya don't mind, took some time reminiscing through our old posts and conversations and listening to some songs for ya (yeah yeah, you might not even see this sadly...well, sad for us. Happy for you! So happy to hear when someone is doing well!)

So I was reading one of your posts about trying to stay positive and "fake it till ya make it" (my Mama always used to say that!) But that sometimes, just sometimes we really have to be honest, right?? Well, lately I've been having a bit of a self pity party with another community I'm a part of and well, because I was feeling bad maybe I said some things...I really didn't think they were offensive or hurtful at all!! But some members thought so (I was asking about bipolar disorder, because I ...idk. I just wonder about it for myself for a long time, but I've never been diagnosed or I suppose, never had it bad enough to really concern me) Well, a few thought I was being rude trying to ask what it's like. Sorry, but people have brought it up on the site! And I thought...idk. I hope I'm not putting my foot in my mouth here again. And I also realize I'm an adult who "should know better", but frankly, I don't! I don't see why asking about something is a crime! I didn't ask anyone specifically nor did I like be demanding about it or anything. I just wanted to talk!

Anyway, so Idk. For all I know, my "symptoms" are just because of lady stuff, you know? Wow! don't make me spell it out. I'm already embarrassed by it. but that and anxiety...I mean, I'm already worrying about what 100s of other members might be thinking of me, when someone gives me grief about a post, well the anxiety starts all over! I have a few good friends there (I think??) so that's what's been keeping me there, but...well, it's honestly been a roller coaster ride, because it keeps going back between such dislike for me with such love! And I just fear one day, it's all going to come crashing down...or it's all going to be lost. :(

Well, so, I meant for this to be about starting a new chapter again of being positive. To get into the habit of not talking of depressing things over there. But it really bugs me when "they" can, but I can't. Well,...I suppose I can talk about ME. I don't know. *sigh!

I hope I can still count on this site. As I said, being the older one, I feel so lame and pathetic that I know, but us old folks have feelings too! (and actually, that other site has folks my age...i think sometimes that makes it more challenging.) hmm

Well, bittersweet feelings. Gonna miss you ThreeCheers! And just well, I'll try to preserve your memory by working on making myself good again and just cherishing this community so much.

much love to the MCRmy!!! :)


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Thursday December 01, 2016 
| Posted by: msunevershoulde...

anybody here by chance, into Avatar...or has even heard of them?? let's chat! :D

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Saturday November 26, 2016 
| Posted by: msunevershoulde...

Basically what my title says. This was well worth the 3year wait! Currently listening to Walking in Circles, one of my favorites. I'm kindof addicted because I need some pep music for my workout today, but this sucked me in. I think We Save is a good workout vibe though, so I'll (well it switched over as I write this ha!) well, I'll get started on my workout soon now....hopefully. Oh man, do I need to workout!! I've been so overstressed lately and with no release that I'm starting to get grouchy with the people I, or they are annoying me even more than usual. ^^ Yeah, I need to release and store up those "feel good hormones". :)

Hmm, ok, too lazy to write more. Hope all y'alls are doing well! ;)


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Sunday November 06, 2016 
| Posted by: msunevershoulde...

I brought you my bullets, I'm asking that question just about everywhere I go. It's sooo exhausting!

I mean, usually I am the one being all extroverty trying to get people to talk. Seriously, why do I bother! No...oh there is soo much more to it, but i REALLY am too exhausted!
Gonna go listen to some 90s music again. :P (Nirvana)