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so stoked!

on February 17, 2016 - 10:34am

Stoked? Is that still a word? Sounds funny! Do you guys ever find words suddenly sounding strange?

anyway, orWAY! I justfound on YouTube an old, a very oldMCR show thatI still hadn't watched entirely lastyear when I was actually searching for all these rare shows and videos. I'll share itin the comments section. Anyway, it's notthebest quality but...iT HAS THIS IS THE BEST DAY EVER!!! (This was in the running for my favorite song...before I heard Bury Me in Black)
Anyway, while the sound is a little wonky, I can't believe...I mean, you gotta see Frankie...haha he freakin loses it on his

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Is Messenger now working!??

on February 17, 2016 - 9:44am

I've been seeing progress with the Personal Messenger on here every few weeks. Is it working now? One question more, if it do I read the messages? I think I might possibly be reading only a partial message or, I can only read it once??? Maybe this part, they are still repairing.

Wow, still, I get excited and hopeful every time something gets fixed! Now I know how Z and the others around last year must have been feeling all this time! ;)

Ok, well have a great day or night everyone! Keep the faith! :D

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on February 14, 2016 - 7:34am

Just gotta say

THANKS for the support!

You know who you are!

Peace and love! To you, as well as the rest of you!

If possible, you may see more of me here, if not...I may have to get a new ID. No more talk of this though, we will meet again...

"when both our stars collide!" ; (

Ok folks, sorry...don't worry okay...might just be sooner than we think!
be happy, be good to each other.

"We'll carry on!"


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I Rock!!

on February 10, 2016 - 4:23pm

Baking these little babies tonight!

Sugar-Free, Gluten-Free Oatmeal Raisin Cookies

I rock!

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Acoustic at 98.7FM

on February 9, 2016 - 6:23pm

Currently listening to this set because I never finished it. Omgoodness, Ray is freaking brilliant here in Sing! I mean all are, but he truly shines with his mad skills...and that hair! Yay Ray! XD



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Tuesday February 02, 2016 
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yeah you know who I am talking to!

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Tuesday February 02, 2016 
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had pt5 all ready and it triggered the spam...just might not be able to finish, but lets try

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Tuesday February 02, 2016 
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Ok, in case you missed thecomment...

Violent...hadn't hurt anyone physically? But then came the open threat, only it turned out it wasn't a threat, his intentions were just thwarted. (Threatened my aunt, whom he was living with or living nearby)

Needless to say, the whole family is just shaken up about this. He's being managed now somehow, again fuzzy details, but ...

Yeah, cuz I guess he came back here recently, so he must be "okay". Ha, you know!

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Tuesday February 02, 2016 
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Back to my cousin,

so he moved on too. Was making a life for himself. I was happy for him, butstill mmissed him dearly. He couldn't come visit because of his job. Finally, one time he came. Oh I wish I could hold him like that forever because not long after that, would things get really bad.

ok, so I don't remember details, nor am I feeling qualified to talk on such matters given information via word of mouth and not directly from those involved, but apparently, he kindof went psycho...and I say this, kindof as avictim, so my word choice is poor. Not to me, but he became so mentally unstable, refused medicine and became violent.

I hate to end now like this, but I really think I have to go and I can't think just how to continue yet either....

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Tuesday February 02, 2016 
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So what else? So things took a turn, slowly , y cousin was slipping away. He started smoking, which alienated him to me and my siblings, it hurt me but I still loved him. Eventually though, he would have to move away because my Aunt had gotten a job not local. So, I guess we said goodbye, although I honestly don't remember this...I very likely suppressed this, but nonetheless, he was gone and I was alone. My siblings are younger than me and at that age, it was significant. So I felt alone...

But I moved on (this still is not the light I speak of though). I had neary forgotten all the pain until I met a guy pretty similar to my cousin...ah, I should just say that I loved him that way. He was no good for me though. Had issues and was kindof a womanizer amongst other thinhs and well golly gee, this is not about him. Anyway, though he made me remember my cousin. At the time, I thought maybe here's my chance, find someone like someone I love...of coirse, like I said, the guy was no good for me and I had to end it. Leaving me heartbroken least I wasn't alone. My BFF (even tho we don't talk anymore today, he will always be my BFF), well he was there...might mention him again some other day.


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Tuesday February 02, 2016 
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Good day to you all! I'm going to make one of those multi series blogs today. Keep in mind, I am tired and wired but I have to say this before I forget. Not exactly sure if this qualifies as religious content, not going into specifics or anything, and it's only my feelings, so it should be ok. But if you don't believe in God, i hope you can believe in me and with that, i ask you to please give this a read.

I woke up after a startlingly dream this morning...about someone I don't think too much about theae days, but was a ....well, like a big brother to me,my closest cousin, my first closest cousin, for I have since, made other ffriendships. (Sooo tired and stubborn Samsung Tablet!-sorry)

We were the best buds and he coached me through , y first crush. Yes, the two were in this play together (how I came to theatre, tho I don't partake in it , much these days, I do enjoy your stories).
We always hung out at some point of the day (oh gah! I just remembered, he kindof taught me what a french kiss, not on me. Was teasing me (this was before we were friends), flicking his tongue at me, and then I realized what it meant. I am not explainingit best, can't recall the exact words he said anymore, but...oh, why am I telling this? I guess because it just shows we spent a lot of time together and this is how I learned some facts of life.)
Anyway, I was saying some point in the day at reunions and family parties and one such trip, he rode with my family and I, spent from the day's activities, laid my head on his shoulder and breathed into his shirt. My first real love, not crush, not romantic, but pure beautiful love. He got out of the car but left his shirt. I took it and breathed it in in remembrance of him. (Perhaps that was weird? Idk but when my Grandpa passed on later, one of my other cousins admitted doing this with his old clothes to remember I am not alone here)

Continue? (I probably will anyway, but I maybe gtg now)