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My turn to say bored!

on February 19, 2016 - 3:46pm

My Grandma told me never to say I'm bored...that there's always something you could be doing. And she was right! I could be cooking right now, and that's probably what I'll do just as soon as I finish this. But...I guess I'm just feeling unmotivated??

I wanted to spend the day outside. It was very warm, but the wind is outrageous!! Almost knocked me down! And the leaves were getting blown in my face. Ugh! do not like this. So I had to come back inside. Had my late lunch...I suppose it's time to prepare dinner.

Well, I hope tomorrow is better still...

Have a great weekend everybody!



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In case you missed this change

on February 18, 2016 - 1:31pm

Yesterday I posted about an old MCR video on here, there first tour show in fact!!

Well, I put the wrong link. While that show was old and good too, the one I am referring to is in the comments here. But, if you want to hear my thoughts and comments, go back to my other post. ok, I give you...

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so stoked!

on February 17, 2016 - 10:34am

Stoked? Is that still a word? Sounds funny! Do you guys ever find words suddenly sounding strange?

anyway, orWAY! I justfound on YouTube an old, a very oldMCR show thatI still hadn't watched entirely lastyear when I was actually searching for all these rare shows and videos. I'll share itin the comments section. Anyway, it's notthebest quality but...iT HAS THIS IS THE BEST DAY EVER!!! (This was in the running for my favorite song...before I heard Bury Me in Black)
Anyway, while the sound is a little wonky, I can't believe...I mean, you gotta see Frankie...haha he freakin loses it on his

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Is Messenger now working!??

on February 17, 2016 - 9:44am

I've been seeing progress with the Personal Messenger on here every few weeks. Is it working now? One question more, if it do I read the messages? I think I might possibly be reading only a partial message or, I can only read it once??? Maybe this part, they are still repairing.

Wow, still, I get excited and hopeful every time something gets fixed! Now I know how Z and the others around last year must have been feeling all this time! ;)

Ok, well have a great day or night everyone! Keep the faith! :D

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on February 14, 2016 - 7:34am

Just gotta say

THANKS for the support!

You know who you are!

Peace and love! To you, as well as the rest of you!

If possible, you may see more of me here, if not...I may have to get a new ID. No more talk of this though, we will meet again...

"when both our stars collide!" ; (

Ok folks, sorry...don't worry okay...might just be sooner than we think!
be happy, be good to each other.

"We'll carry on!"




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Tuesday February 02, 2016 
| Posted by: msunevershoulde...

very saddened...he was only here for a short while and I understand I am being protected by not seeing him...just miss the days!!

woke up in tears

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Tuesday February 02, 2016 
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ok, so here's the light. Well, I always knew in my heart that I would be consoled, I always am, but I kept on thinking sad thoughts for like 10 minutes. Of course I prayed for my cousin and all that family's well being and that things get better, and I know they will, but I had forgotten the simple prayer that is to be said when one has a bad dream or has any kind of sad or angry or I guess, otherwise, irrational or purely emotional thoughts (sorry, missing the best word here). Anyway, I had finally remembered to say it and here's the good part, I kid you not, the second I finished my third recitation, ALL the pain was gone! I couldn't shed another tear, I couldn't even go back to those thoughts, and I really did try. It's just that this prayer is so powerful, my whole body became so relaxed and calm and at peace, I couldn't be anywhere else. Forgive me but I justhave to shout, well "shout", God is Great!!

why do I share this? Because I hear a lot of things on this site, sometimes familiar things, sometimes things I can juat relate to. We all experience pain but, had I known the things I know now, like this prayer, life would've been a lot better for me back then....Perhaps, I had to live it though in order to understand it, to appreciate this gift now...I know I can't reach, touch, affect everybody, but I hope that I can share some hope and possibly help someone....

Someone... that reminds other favorite song for its beautiful lyrics, the untitled song or those words,

Someone out there loves you after all

and in my belief, that someone is always "the man upstairs". We love but when we love, sometimes it hurts. He loves without any strain or pain, that is how He can love so many, that is how He can love those nobody else loves. I've been blessed with friends here on earth, but I've realized that no one is perfect and no one is everlasting (with us physically)...but my faith tells me that God is always there, and will always love me/us. Whether you share this with me or not, I am and hope to always be comforted by this love.

Peace and love to you all! Have a great day!

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Tuesday February 02, 2016 
| Posted by: msunevershoulde...

yeah you know who I am talking to!

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Tuesday February 02, 2016 
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had pt5 all ready and it triggered the spam...just might not be able to finish, but lets try

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Tuesday February 02, 2016 
| Posted by: msunevershoulde...

Ok, in case you missed thecomment...

Violent...hadn't hurt anyone physically? But then came the open threat, only it turned out it wasn't a threat, his intentions were just thwarted. (Threatened my aunt, whom he was living with or living nearby)

Needless to say, the whole family is just shaken up about this. He's being managed now somehow, again fuzzy details, but ...

Yeah, cuz I guess he came back here recently, so he must be "okay". Ha, you know!

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Tuesday February 02, 2016 
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Back to my cousin,

so he moved on too. Was making a life for himself. I was happy for him, butstill mmissed him dearly. He couldn't come visit because of his job. Finally, one time he came. Oh I wish I could hold him like that forever because not long after that, would things get really bad.

ok, so I don't remember details, nor am I feeling qualified to talk on such matters given information via word of mouth and not directly from those involved, but apparently, he kindof went psycho...and I say this, kindof as avictim, so my word choice is poor. Not to me, but he became so mentally unstable, refused medicine and became violent.

I hate to end now like this, but I really think I have to go and I can't think just how to continue yet either....