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How Punk Is helping my reccovery

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chpeverill-conti's picture
on September 28, 2016 - 5:56pm

This is an excerpt from my journal. I'd love it if you guys read it and commented :) It's a mental revolution I came to about how punk can save me from my eating disorder and made me feel very hopeful!
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I weigh ___.__ lbs. FUCK. I don't want to feel like this. I don't want to feel the need to restrict or the urge to purge. Listening to Wingnut Dishwasher's Union, Pat The Bunny and Johnny Hobo And The Freight Trains, ect. It makes me feel inspired and kinda bad cause an eating disorder is everything punk rock is NOT about. Changing the world, enjoying making a difference, standing against conformity. Not conforming to society's unrealistic beauty/body standards. Not going to such a length to be what you never will be. The punk scene is about so much more than looking cool, it's a lifestyle. I may be rugged, and making things work YOUR way. It's a fucking movement, you know? It's something that changes lives. "You wish the world was clean but I'm in love with the way it's dirty" - pat the bunny. Maybe this is a motivation. To continue living the punk life, to truly be in the movement, I need to move past my disease. It makes my eating disorder sound so irrelevant and stupid, like it should be.
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In other news, I got my tattoo! getting it colored soon! it's going to be beautiful colored, and it's beautiful as an outline now. I'm in love. Got the right side of my lip pierced! got a nice BIG ring on for 3 weeks to account for the swelling. I love all the body mods I can do now that I'm 18. I shaved off my eyebrows again, too, but I need to re-teach myself how to put them on.
that's all for now. sorry I haven't been on much recently :/ had a cold so I was just sleeping.
gonna earn how to play a johnny hobo song on guitar. THinking "new mexico song"
xoxoZ