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I hate goodbyes.

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So today was my last day of school (before some exams which will be done soon) and I think it's the first time in my life I'm sad about it. Don't get me wrong, I love the fact that now I will get up later and be more relaxed etc etc. But the class in which I've been this year has been the best class ever of my whole life, and when I say the best it's THE BEST with capital letters!!! I just think that my classmates were awesome as well as my teachers and I've felt really close to all of them. We were like a family (like in this site ;)) and I've enjoyed every second of this year (except for the stress but well, you know what I mean). I've been crying for days because I hate goodbyes and today I was about to sob without control in class but for some reason, I managed to make the tears stay in my eyes (sounds weird) but now I'm starting again T.T Next year we'll be the same people and this makes me feel really good but two of them will not be there anymore and I can only say that I'll miss them a lot. A LOT. I'll also miss my litterature (of all kinds) and history teachers, I really liked what we did. At the end of our last class today, most of us were crying or smiling weirdly (as if they were sad) and most of us have finished hugging each other. I don't know what I'm going to do next year when I'm leaving for real school to start university. I'm going to drown in my own tears hahaha...
Well, as you could guess, I'll miss my class and this year.

Now I also know that I won't see him anymore and this feeling kills me. I know I should forget him but I can't and I don't want to... so this means that I'll spend my future years crying in the corners (I think this Spanish expression isn't like this in English...^^) so this is the best opportunity to perfectionate my fake smile yeeah and to not give a f*CK about the world. (I need to go somewhere where no one will ever find me and scream until my heart explodes (any suggestion?)).