I've been so depressed lately. i just don't feel like trying anymore. i just want to give up sometimes. i'm just so unhappy. i try so hard everyday to put a smile on my face and try to do things that might make me happy but i'm not. i'm so bitterly unhappy. i'm so depressed, so worthless. i'm not sure why i care so much anyway. i've been slipping a lot. i used to be such a great student now i'm about to get my first 70 i just gave up on who i used to be. i don't care about school anymore and i have the urge to just get into trouble. do something bad and reckless and just not give a fuck anymore. why should i care anyway? i'm not sure why i did or do. i just feel like giving up and lying here wasting away until i reach the nothingness that calls to me. i'm just so depressed and i'm not sure what to do or what i can do anymore. i just don't want this anymore.