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Week off Day 5 - Mcr Breakdown

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Charbarmanning's picture
on February 12, 2016 - 8:06am

I only have the weekend left off school and then I'm back. At least my first lesson on Monday is Drama. Last night, before I had my electronics taken off my, my dad picked up a water gun and filled it up and firing water at me and my brother with it. My mum started complaining and ended up being squirted. I wish there was another water gun in the room as me and my brother could fight against my dad. It was lots of fun.

I've been asking a lot of question today and I don't know why. I was watching a live performance of Na Na Na from the end of 2010 and I was nearly in tears. I then asked myself why I was in tears but I knew why. Whenever I watch a clip from a stage performance of My Chem, I start to blame myself for missing out on it. I start saying in my head 'you could of been there if you were a fan earlier on'. I heard their music in 2010 and never really had any interest in the band or songs and I only ever listened to them if they were on the radio. I now blame myself for not being a fan back then. All I cared about in 2010 was bands like The Script, who I'd loved since I was young due to my mum being a fan, and One Direction who then the year afterwards became the worst band in the world in my opinion. If that change of heart happened when I was listening to mcr stuff on the radio, I could of been a fan earlier. I could of made it to a concert. I could of had at least one of their CDs earlier on. But no. I had to come across them again 2 years after their breakup. I was in VMG and I walking in and Erin and Eleanor were singing Na Na Na and I knew the tune but I didn't know where I knew it from. I sang along with them and then they got to the lyrics part and Erin started to say 'How come you don't know the lyrics?' so they started singing the lyrics together. The day after, I walk into VMG and they are singing Teenagers, which I hadn't heard before. I fell in love with the song and went home and searched it up on YouTube. I just changed the title of this blog from 'Week off Day 5 - Friday' to 'Week off Day 5 - Mcr Breakdown'. I'll carry on. Oh great song lyrics. I'm not in the mood at the moment. I found Teenagers and didn't look at the date of release. I thought Gerard was around 20-25 years old and I couldn't put an age to the rest of them. I decided to look at some more songs. I then watched Im Not Okay and by then I knew the names of the members put I couldn't put the names to the faces. I kept getting the lyrics wrong and the names wrong but that wasn't what mattered to me. What mattered to me was the fact I was too late. I'd missed the craze and it still matters now. I found out I heard Na Na Na and Sing before I'd searched up the band and I started to blame myself. The blame is continues. I don't know which side I'm on of the blame. Am I the Blamer or the Blamed? I'm smiling when I sing My Chem or when I listen to my Chem but when I watch them live I'm unhappy.

I can't be bothered writing my ending. I'm not in the mood.