It's Been TOOOOOOO Long........
I haven't been on here or any MCR fansite in way too long. I sincerely apologize for that. :/ I don't really know why I haven't been on here. It's kind of a weird thing to me. I dunno. I guess I've just been in a weird place for a while now. Haha. I've noticed so many changes in me and I'm not sure if I like all of them.....I wouldn't say they are bad, just different. I guess that's just another part of growing up. I'm going to be 20 years old later this year! I'm not ready for that big of a change! I know it's cringy to say, but "I'll be so old!"
Right now in my life, I'm in a sort of limbo. I plan on going to school in the Fall of this year, but I'm sorta busy getting applications and documents out and it's stressing me out. (Seeing hard deadlines like this again is stressing me out in ways I didn't think possible.) I just feel as if I'm a mix of crazy and "worthless" right now. I don't know. I mean, I shouldn't be stressed out by sending out applications, but I am. I'm also still struggling to get a job that is stable. It's driving me crazy!!!
I also have had no success in making friends. :(
I feel like freaking out. I'm not going to, but that is how I feel on the inside.
I'm trying really hard to keep it together. I've started writing songs again. The last time I really sat down and wrote a song was when I was like 13. It's strange how hard it is to do something so simple. Well, I've gotta go for now! I'm going to try to stay active on here. It was such a great feeling to come back on here and read all the posts and see how all you guys are doing!
Stay classy, stay sassy, and never stop running!