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on January 28, 2019 - 8:13pm

What's the point of posting anything online? Is it attention? Validation? Sure it's cathartic, but it's also annoying. To be honest, it's just a way for me to procrastinate turning in my homework that I didn't start - and that's due in 40 minutes. I lost touch of this side of my personality. The one that writes unnecessary paragraphs of longing. And what is that longing? ATTENTION! VALIDATION! I've ignored it, for so long, for no reason. Maybe I just felt too annoying, that I'm not 12 anymore, and that I have to grow up and recognize the fact that I am a legal adult - I have been for a few years. But is it childish to seek out that little piece of me that never felt fulfilled?

All this, because my boyfriend cancelled on coming over to my place.