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chpeverill-conti's picture
on February 3, 2016 - 7:56pm

I have to tell you guys a story that's happy :)
So I work at Spener's Gift. Today I was at work, and I started going downhill, feeling myself get caught up in negative thoughts. Just as it started getting much much worse, to the point where I thought I'd have to leave, Emperor's New Clothes by Panic! at the Disco came on, and suddenly all I could think of was the drunk history of FOB video with Brendon and him talking about Pete's dick pics, and the vine he recorded about how he read the milk fic. I was so happy about thinking about the emo trio that I felt a lot better! And tonight is my first night in a while where I've been able to stay safe. It's been a really hard day, I had to stay in the light house room (the calming-down room for when you're too upset to go to class. Only at special needs schools :P) for 3 hours and I went mute for a little while too. I was thinking of doing unsafe things when I got home but I DIDN'T and I'm very happy about that. This means when I hang out with my boyfriend next (our 8th month is on v-day, ain't that cool!), I won't have to hide anything on my body. I don't like to talk myself up, cause it draws attention to what I'm moving up from and sometimes I just don't want to think about the past, but I'm really proud of myself for resisting urges. And I feel proud to say I was strong enough, even just for a night.
Thanks for listening, guys. Sorry I haven't been on as much but rest assured that I think about this site and the MCRmy all the time. You're FAR from forgotten.
I love each of you in this community <3