So, I just came back from watching New Moon, like, a while ago. It was better than Twilight, but I still thought it was pretty stupid. Hahah.

Sad thing is, even though I got a chance to hang out with friends, I'm upset. I'm ticked and I'm bored. I absolutely, strongly dislike being home. I shouldn't even call it home; sometimes when I'm at my house, I find myself saying, "I wanna go home" in my mind. What the hell is that? Seriously?? I don't like being home because of my parents. They're so nosy and overprotective; especially my dad. Sometimes they'll make fun of me, and I know they're "joking," but personally, I don't think it's funny.

another rant about my mother.
I've just given up on her. She can't bother to understand me, why the hell should I keep trying?
It's only causing me more pain. She may think I'm happy, when really, I'm just content right now.
My best friend tried to commit suicide and won't tell me why.
Even after I told her everything shitty about my life.
Thanks for the trust.
No words make me happy anymore.
I feel like it's all a joke, like someone is mocking me in some way.
The only way I'm happy is when my bf messes with my foot.
Woooo. Not a lasting happiness.
My brother keeps making fun of me about how I dress.
Saying I'm emo.
How everyone hates me.
My dad is barely involved with my family at all, and he's still married to my mom.
Soooo I don't have anyone close to me anymore.
Which is pretty much why I come here to endlessly complain about how my life sucks.
sigh. tell me why your life sucks. I need it right now.
xoxo,
M

Weeee!!! I am so happy! Tonight i have my sister a massage and in return, i get to play ps3 tomorrow for two hours!!! I get to play this AWSOME game called PROTOTYPE. i havent ever played it b4, but was on youtube an checked the gameplay!!! Very very happy me!!! I get to kill people. I can turn into weapons!!! And some kinda monsters are there too!!! YAYZ!!!
Just tellin you what i get to do tomorrow... But my mum must not know. She must not know that my sis lets me play that kinda game. If i told my mum, my sis would come into my room in the dead of night, and pull hair out of my head... Many hairs... In one... So dont tell, i wanna play this game!!!

i had a preaty interesting daydream today during chorus and it was about a marshmellow gunfight!
YAYS!
Details:
i summer salted around the corner where the preformers went on *im backstage at some show*
there are chords and guitars and amps everywhere i get on one knee and blast my best friend frankie wit marshmellows i say " HAHA! TAKE THAT!" i tumble under the cart wheeling past and after it pased she got me "haha!" she said! and im like "awww uuugggekk oh no im hit!" and i pretend to fall dead and i land on my knee *im wearing my black skinny jeans and areo black jacket wit my hair in pigtails and my head band in*

Well
as most of very few of you may know by now that yesterday was my 16th birthday
had an amazing time... and soo much chocolate... millions of people saying happy birthday to me over and over,, if that had to keep on going i mightve turned more green than i felt.
So i also had my year 10 formal
it was very boring, but if i didnt invite my bestfriend justin, it would not have been the same experience.

For these past couple of months for me have not been great . i have been in n out of doctors offices, test after test trying to find out just what the hell is wrong with my me. It started off being an infection, now i've got high blood pressure at the age of 17. but now they say that 1 outta 4 of my kidneys might be damaged. the only thing that has got me to this point without ripping out my hair and screaming at the top of my lungs is my i pod that has an endless list off my fave music, which im proud to say that MCR is a part of.

......y can't we just have perfect health and that it, y does it have to be so difficult and y do doctors have to use big words that u don't understand!
aww well the sooner this is over the better!

:D :D :D

anybody message me!!!
also, got a new pic, wat do ya think?

If you were to say today what song was your favorite by MCR, what would it be and why would you choose it? Something old school, like Skylines, something obvious like Helena, something newer like Desolation row, or something else? Let everyone know...

other Of the fRiienDs that i almOst lOve is aliCiia! ((the ones that's at the frOnt))
she's awesOme even when we haD sOme prOblems the last year but she apologized
well when we talk about MJ is amazinG
and tOday we danCed really gOOd
anD well she take me out of a biG prOblem everyone wanteD me tO danCe billie jean XD
well other frienD Fernanda doesn't want me tO gO out wwith her
anD tOday she really get anGry because Of that but she dOesn't understanD us
haha hOwever alicia is a really gOOd friend
remember Chemical Potter Friends Forever MJ Forever
CPF
sO lOnG anD gOOd niGht...
xOxO

In the past weeks since I had gone to the mall with Jess and the guys, both me and Jess dreaded each school day. Simply because of this: it turns out that those preps from Claire's that mobbed us at the mall that day ALL went to our school. That means that ten people in our school, who we already hated, and were very popular, witnessed me and Jess offically becoming Mikey and Gerard's girlfriends. The only thing that got us through the day was the thought of them picking us up from school at the end of the day. Don't get me wrong, all our friends were glad for us because they saw how happy we were with them. But we were getting mixed messages from the rest of the kids in our school. Some of them were desperate to be our friends just so they could meet My Chemical Romance. Others hated us for being with them. And others were so jealous it was sickening.