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I went out on Friday and we went to some club in North London, and it was a pretty good club, the drinks were expensive though.

YOUR LIFE AS MOVIE [SOUNDTRACKS]

So here's what you do;
1.Go to your music player
2.Put it on shuffle
3.For each scene, press the next button and so on.
DON'T CHEAT!!

Here's what I got;

Opening credits: Rise Against - Satellite

Waking up: Memphis May Fire - The Rose

First Day of school: Of Mice & Men - Space Enough To Grow

Fighting: My Chemical Romance - We Don't Need Another Song About California

Breaking Up: A Day To Remember - If I Live

Prom: We Came As Romans - Ghost

Life is good: Asking Alexandria - Breathless

Mental Breakdown: All Time Low - Dear Maria, Count Me In

Driving: Sleeping With Sirens - Satellites

Flashback: My Chemical Romance - Sing

Making Up: Of Mice & Men - I'm A Monster

Wedding: Rise Against - Prayer Of The Refugee

Birth Of Child: A Day To Remember - You Be Tails, I'll Be Sonic

Night before war: Memphis May Fire - The Sinner

Wow this sounds really cool tbh. All these songs are amazing

I always wonder, when you grow up and you’re famous, will you talk to me? If I come to a meet and greet, and I say “Hey, remember me? It’s Z.” will you smile at me then the way you smile at me now? This probably sounds like a really stupid concept, but I can’t stop thinking about it. I Don’t want us to be nothing. Friendships fade, but I don’t want you to leave me. My biggest fear is what if by the time I have the money to fly out and see you, you’ll have forgotten me. I know I sound pathetic right now. It’s just that You’re the best thing in my life right now.
xoxo
- Z

all my music deleted off of my phone the other day so i've only got the 30 or so tracks i've put back on so far, so i'll do this again when i have all my music back x.0

YOUR LIFE AS MOVIE [SOUNDTRACKS]

So here's what you do;
1.Go to your music player
2.Put it on shuffle
3.For each scene, press the next button and so on.
DON'T CHEAT!!

Here's what I got;

Opening credits:
Sweet dreams are made of these - Marilyn Manson

Waking up:
I don't love you - My Chemical Romance

First Day of school:
King cry baby - John Water's Cry-Baby movie soundtrack (1990)

Fighting:
You're so vain - Marilyn Manson

Breaking Up:
I'm so young - The Students

Prom:
Nearly Witches ever since we met - Panic! At The Disco

Life is good:
19 - Pencey Prep

Mental Breakdown:
Shining star - City Of Lions

Driving:
Benson hedges - Fun.

Flashback:
Memories - Panic! At The Disco

Making Up:
I wanna be the one - Fun.

Wedding:
My heart - Paramore

Birth Of Child:

Camp starts on July 20th. That's 6 days!!! I will be a CIT at Pleasant Valley Camp. I'm so excited! This will be my fourth year at PVC, and I'm so happy to start giving back to my camp. CITs have more responsibilities than campers. Like we have to do all the dishes, sort the mail, and we have to watch the campers when the councilors go to meetings. I was nervous at first at being a CIT, because of the ugly CIT completion, which is when the campers put on "ugly" makeup and clothes on the CIT's. Then they give the CIT an ugly personality to teach the kids that there's more to ugly than looks. It's really fun. I keep reminding myself of how much fun it was when I was a camper, and how much fun it will be for them.
I will be gone for 4 weeks. I'll be thinking of all of you, hope you have a good rest of summer!
xoxo
- Z

NOTE: This is not a self harm post therefore I am "NOT" breaking the rules. I'm simply explaining why I need help.
Thank you.

Hi guys, how've you been? Judging by the title, you can probably tell I'm not so great.
So this week has literally been SHIT!!!
I missed 2/3 days of school (Because I'm just a little shit like that) and my family was obviously no help considering I literally avoided them by locking myself in my room THE WHOLE DAY...No lie. I only went out once each day for food because whenever I'd leave, I'd get a panic attack. Yes guys.
It's come to this. I can't even be comfortable in my own goddamn house.
I cried every morning because I feel like a disapointment to everyone.
My parents, my teachers, my friends, heck, even God at times.
Seriously guys, I'm feeling like complete shit. I look in the mirror and insults fill my mind. I can't go a day without criticizing myself anymore.

So this blog is another update of my life...
I'm deciding to skip all the drama that has happened because so many positive and great things have happened in my life the past couple months. First, I just finished my junior year of college! Time really flies...
Second, I decided to give up my summer at my summer home in order to work and save money for a car. Well that plan worked out really great. I got a job as a teacher at a local Kidville. Let's just say that I love it. I love working with the children, I love doing the music classes and working birthday parties. Giving up my summer was totally worth it and I'm so close to earning enough money for my car =)
My 21st Birthday is in about 2 weeks! I'm super stoked because that means my 21st Birthday Bash is in 3 weeks..and it is going to be super fun. I have this awesome neon theme and I'm going to have glow lights everywhere and black lights! This is going to be the best party I've ever thrown.