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Okay. So i've been a real downer on here lately and i'm sorry. I've been talking to some of you guys and you are super awesome =) There's this one guy especially, (He'll know who he is. Hopefully) who has really helped me and i think is amazing. You all are awesome it's just that i've been talking with him the most and he's made me feel so much better about myself. So thank you! All of you. =)

I LOVE YOU GUYS!!

~ Laura xx

Ok, so last night I had this horrific dream. In it, I broke up with my boyfriend of 2 years to go out with this guy who was just an acquaintance my Sophomore year.

Well, my boyfriend was really upset that I broke up with him (over the phone, seriously) and I just didn't care I guess (horribly unlike me). So, afterwards, I regretted my choice deeply, and within minutes, I started blowing up his phone: no answer. I texted him that I love him, and that I'm sorry and I regret it and I love him more than I could ever love anybody, but he didn't respond.

Well, come to find out, he committed suicide. I woke up immediately after to a text from him:
"Good morning beautiful. You're everything to me, and I'm lucky and honored to mean anything to you."

Hey!

I figured with all my talk about my weight loss I'd give y'all an idea of how bad I was and a rough estimate of myself right now (though I've lost a few since last month). The first picture is of me in Berlin, Germany in May of 2009 (Fancy that, the same month we're in right now). That was at my heaviest- shy of 200.

The second one is of me at Pedernales Falls State Park in Johnson City, Texas last month. That is me at around 171. I wish I had a picture from this month, but I haven't taken any worthy of the Internet. I just figured some of you might be curious as to the difference.
-AJ

So, I only have a few days left of school, which are reserved for finals...and honestly...It's kind of depressing. Considering most of my closest friends are graduating, and the fact that I'll be here for one more year until I graduate AND the fact that I just...Ugh I don't even know. MCR is holding me together right now...

So I'm bored and you don't have to read this. It's not very important or interesting!

My mum is going though her second cycle of chemo, and she got back her CT results and she actually has no cancer cells left in her body! Yay! Also if TO EVERY ENEMY see's this blog I just wanted to say you are also my favourite person! c: <3

It's short. And he says it better than I can. I don't have the problem anymore cause I know what I'm gonna do with my life. Never said it'd work out but I know what I'll be doing. But sometimes I see blogs essentially saying that the person is uncertain and sometimes lacking motivation for their current path...etc. If you are one of those people, watch.