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I need to get off. I can't take it anymore. I hate that one minute i'm on a hype and the next i'm below low. It's scary and so is the fact that the thoughts that don't change are almost comforting. 'You've always got the easy way out', 'If it get's any harder, at least you can end it'. It's not right!! I don't like it and my doctor's on holiday and isn't back until next week! I need the help now before it gets worse. I'm pretty much open to any suggestion right now. Don't be shy, help me!

Please.

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ok, so i want to know, what era of MCR is your favorite? Are you a Parader, a Revenger, or a KillJoy? I see myself as a Revenger. That was (Not that the other ones wernt great!) the best era and album. Granted i think if Gerard would have built off that Profesional Greivers colab that he did with DeadMau5, and taken that to make an album, I would definantly be a Profesional Greiver. I still dont get why people dislike that song? (This is where i get really off topic and start talking about everything!) the only reason i would understand not likeing that song, is if you wernt into like techno and stuff like that, but if you like Gerard, and you like DeadMau5, what the hell was wrong with it!?!? theres a lot of red squigily lines on the screen from mispellings and stuffffzz. lol. :3 Im really freaking board. Like, BOOOOOAAAAARRRRRD! I missed a day of school so they took me out of class for two days to have me sit in a room and do nothing. ;uckly i found an excuse to get on the computer.

It feels worse than before , like I don't even want to do the things that make me happy anymore I don't care about school anymore I'm constantly messaging girls in hope that they would date me. ( they all think I'm crazy)

I just don't care about anything anymore

I needed someone to see past the smile. i thought he would but all he did was make the pain worse... Made me fall for him, just s he could hurt me. But then.... i went to a Cancer Bats concert and met the Drummer for The Conjuring..... how is it that a drummer for a heavy metal band can see behind the smile in two seconds but the boy i thought was perfect just made it worse? I can't even contact the drummer, and i wont even talk to christian..... (first pic of person is Christian...... the one who made things worse. The second is of the drummer.... i was stupid enough to not even learn his name....)

My boyfriend finally got a good job, which is awesome. :-)

But on a more irritating note, I can't deal with my mother anymore. Between her violent mood swings and thinking she talks to God, she isn't even a fucking person. She's like, an empty shell filled with vices and flaws. I hate her so much.

I understand that she didn't ask to be schizophrenic, but if we go by that logic, people didn't ask to be sociopaths, sexual deviants, etc, and it's perfectly okay to hate them.

I thought today would be fine.
But it's not.

If i end up broken, crying on the floor, does anybody notice? If i covered in blood, does anybody care?

No.

I can't handle the abuse from my mother, friends, and peers anymore. I. just. can't.
Is there anything to take this pain away? Can no one hear me screaming?