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So it's my senior year, and I remember that I wrote a letter to myself my sophomore year. Reading it today was much needed. The last line was a major mood-changer for me.
I wrote, at the very end, "Stay strong, I know that you are." Major happy mood. I was having a pretty rough day today, so that helped me a lot.
Just thought I'd share. :)
TH.K

All I want to do is sleep forever and lock my self in my room.
But I cant...with my friends knowing whats going on but doesnt take it seriously.
I have never felt this depressed like honestly,I have been alone and hated since 1st grade-6th grade with all the bullying but...its worst then ever.
Maybe with whats going on now and with what I remember happening in my past,its come to haunt me.
I dont know for sure but hopfully this will end.

I had this dream the other night that MCR opened a store and were selling merch in my town so I went to the store and bought everything! The guys were there and then they took me on the tour with them! (Revenge Era) It was absolutely amazing!!!

I just.... I don't know anymore. Since my girlfriend dumped me a couple of weeks ago, neither she nor our friend Antichrist Angel have talked to me... they don't even acknowledge me. And when they do, AA seems to give me dirty looks...
I'm losing everything. I'm losing myself and everyone I care about. Yesterday my own mother threatened to kick me out cause she thought that I was skipping school. And I'm only 14!
Then today I was being picked on...like I keep BEING picked on. But they wouldn't leave me the fuck alone during lunch. It only made everything so much worse. And then there's the fact that I admitted to one of my friends that a... certain thought has been weighing quite heavily on my mind for the past week (although it's been in my head for quite a while now), and that the more I think of it the more I consider it, and it doesn't even scare me anymore. It's become such a natural thought in my head. And the fact that I've developed insomnia again doesn't help matters.

So these are 2 of many pictures I drew on my trip.
My art buddy and I want to create a comic book together with characters based off of my classmates during the zombcolypse. The first picture is my character if this goes anywhere.

Then I decided to draw gerard's (your) left eye (2nd picture) from the third picture

-December Lithium

I'm off to bed before I succumb to the cider in the fridge. Mmm, fuck you temptation. God I'm tired. I can't sleep though. I hate life. Night. xo

Hey,

I have some more stuff to tell you. Here's the first: I haven't jogged a step since I was probably 13. I'm teaching myself to jog again by jogging in place in my room and backyard (there are a few nutters in my neighborhood). That is the first item. I jog at a snail's pace, but having a playlist to jog to helps though.

The second item is: I'm focusing on losing my belly fat. That issue is being handled by the item above and I started an exercise Jillian Michaels is putting in her most recent tape yesterday. It involves eight pound weights, but that would kill me and I don't even have any that weight- I'm using my mom's old, underused 3.3 lb weights. They do the job.