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When I was a few years younger, I never cried. I never let anything get to me. I locked everything away and shoved it all behind this big ass brick wall. But then as things progressed, I grew tired of being insulted all the time. I grew tired of holding it all in, and forgetting. And then one day, I can't remember exactly what happened or who did it, but someone broke down my wall. I think it was my father, whom, I regret to say, I hate. He's been a bully to me as long as I can remember. He's the reason the wall was put up.

And now, hard as I try, it just won't go back up. -_- fucking dammit, do you know how useful it was >~< Fuck. Maybe soon it'll go back up, I'd like to stop feeling so much. I'm just no good at concentrating, so, that's probably why.

Mer.

WOW!
It has been a very long time since I don't show my stupidity in here... Well, in other words, long time no see.
I miss this place really much. It has been four years since I joined this site and I have not posted anything since what? 2012?

I know I don't have many readers and that's okay, but I just wanted to know who else in here is missing the old times in this site? o/

As you can read, my English is improving and I cannot be more proud. My "brain" is improving also, so I do not wish to bore any of y'all.

If any of you reads my older posts, please, don't judge, I was a 13 year-old kid who knew no better hahaha

Anyway, I hope you all are enjoying life despite the fact that it's about to be a year since our favorite band split apart (I'm really sorry I had to bring that up). I'm pretty sure that some of the people I used to talk to are doing great. It's good to come back. Writing in here feels like home.

strangling hugs! xoxo

Well on Monday i went to my first concert (technically second, first was Trans-Siberian Orchestra) at the White Rabbit. i went to go see Divided by Friday but i got to see some other really awesome bands like Ghost Town, Jonny Craig (His voice is beautiful!) and Breath Carolina. I was so nervous. Because i couldn't go alone i had to go with my dad. I really enjoyed the concert but i felt so out of it and awkward. Everyone (to me) looked so cool. i loved their style and their hair, i feel like i could never pull it off, even though it wouldn't be allowed at my school. I got to meet the members of Divided by Friday so that was really cool and i also bought some merch.
well i hope your spring break has been fun, have a good rest of the week :)

I know this has nothing to do with MCR but ppl wont help on fbi so im askng u guys do u knoe this coz iv spent half,an hour on this and cant think of it. If u knoe this plz contact me

I'm really really nervous. I think it's one of the times I've been as stressed as I am now.
The fact is that I'll have to pass some exams next week and I'm really scared because it is oral work and I tend to block and then I know I will feel awful and I don't want to fail it because I feel it's extremely important for my future and I know I'm exagerating everything but I will really feel very very bad and I may cry when I arrive home because I feel like sh** when I see I'm a disaster!! And then this moment will be there all my life nd I don't want to have more embarassing/sad/awful moments staying in my mind forever. I have enough of that.AGGGHHHH!!!
Sorry but I had to write it somewhere.
(Now it sounds like a tragedy but I'm sure it will get better after a week).
Hope u don't have to do this kind of things next week :)
One more thing... Any advice to avoid getting nervous/shake/get blocked or something like this?? :)
Thank you all!!!

A game i played and casted myself let me know what you think!