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So I got woken up at midday by a text from my friend Michael saying "Wake upppp I'm bored! :) xxx" And after getting out of bed and getting dressed, we decided to meet in his town and go explore this abandoned house nearby with our cameras, and we did another shoot for our identity project, I really like the photos for it, so hopefully my college tutor will as well. Anyways, after that we went and met Shannon, and went to their dealers place, but they told us to meet them in the carpark behind Dominoes instead, so we did, and I'm not even kidding, the exchange between Michael and this guy was so fast I didn't even see it happen, like literally they walked about 7 metres, didn't see them make contact at all, reached a brick wall just outside the carpark, appeared to exchange numbers on their phones, and then went separate ways, at which point Mike held up this small thing wrapped in paper and plastic, and went "Oh yess!!" Like, they must be drug ninjas or something.

are about death.
I was thinking about it yesterday. I was thinking about my friend's little sister, who died when she was born. Then I thought about my baby brother, and how that could have been him. And this thought came to me.
Grieving is selfish. We all do it, it cannot be controlled, but it is selfish none the less. When you grieve, you are being sad, not for them, but for you not being able to have them anymore. When you wish that they would come back, you are wishing for them to come back from a beautiful, perfect place that they have earned their place in, to a terrible world of sadness so that you can have them again.

I need to get off. I can't take it anymore. I hate that one minute i'm on a hype and the next i'm below low. It's scary and so is the fact that the thoughts that don't change are almost comforting. 'You've always got the easy way out', 'If it get's any harder, at least you can end it'. It's not right!! I don't like it and my doctor's on holiday and isn't back until next week! I need the help now before it gets worse. I'm pretty much open to any suggestion right now. Don't be shy, help me!

Please.

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ok, so i want to know, what era of MCR is your favorite? Are you a Parader, a Revenger, or a KillJoy? I see myself as a Revenger. That was (Not that the other ones wernt great!) the best era and album. Granted i think if Gerard would have built off that Profesional Greivers colab that he did with DeadMau5, and taken that to make an album, I would definantly be a Profesional Greiver. I still dont get why people dislike that song? (This is where i get really off topic and start talking about everything!) the only reason i would understand not likeing that song, is if you wernt into like techno and stuff like that, but if you like Gerard, and you like DeadMau5, what the hell was wrong with it!?!? theres a lot of red squigily lines on the screen from mispellings and stuffffzz. lol. :3 Im really freaking board. Like, BOOOOOAAAAARRRRRD! I missed a day of school so they took me out of class for two days to have me sit in a room and do nothing. ;uckly i found an excuse to get on the computer.

It feels worse than before , like I don't even want to do the things that make me happy anymore I don't care about school anymore I'm constantly messaging girls in hope that they would date me. ( they all think I'm crazy)

I just don't care about anything anymore

I needed someone to see past the smile. i thought he would but all he did was make the pain worse... Made me fall for him, just s he could hurt me. But then.... i went to a Cancer Bats concert and met the Drummer for The Conjuring..... how is it that a drummer for a heavy metal band can see behind the smile in two seconds but the boy i thought was perfect just made it worse? I can't even contact the drummer, and i wont even talk to christian..... (first pic of person is Christian...... the one who made things worse. The second is of the drummer.... i was stupid enough to not even learn his name....)