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so im going through a Transformers rampage. im gonna try and draw either that or Optimus after tonights marathon where i watch all 3.

i guess i should share that xD

but anyways, like it says, update..

i guess im doing better? still like, upset... i miss my friend terribly. he told me to leave him alone for the summer and talk to him when school starts back up.. i guess ill do that. theres not much else i can do if i really want to stay friends with him. yes id be happy to be more (see recent blogs to understand all this if you care to), but if this is what he wants, just friends, then im more than happy to do that.

well, im home alone right now and im getting weird feelings.. not likin the being alone so i grabbed a big steak knife xD oh god, when my mother walks in and sees me clutching this i swear shell freak out xP oops.. sorry bout the fear thats about to burst inside me xD

Dearest Killjoys, Paraders, and forever-fighting Soldiers,
I've been gone for a while, huh? I'm not going to assume you missed me much, but I haven't been on since May, which is much longer than I intended to be away from you lovely kids. Just so you guys know- because there's always someone out there who doesn't- I love all of you and even though I haven't been on in a while and I've only really made one friend on here. You guys are IMPORTANT no matter what. I didn't really mean to start with that, but it needed to be said.
What I did mean to say was this: You guys probably didn't miss me that much, but I'm back and I really hope to... I dunno... Get more involved, I guess? Yeah, let's phrase it that way. And I think I know how to do that, as I have some things that have been in the works that you guys might enjoy...
Either way, the point is, love you, missed you, and expect to see more of me- and maybe some of my writing- very soon. ;)

It was Fathers day yesterday and so my sister, her girlfriend, my brother and nan came round for tea ( i haven't seen my other brother since i was 9, i'm 17 now, and my other sister is a stuck up bitch who would rather spend fathers day with her boyfriend apparently) anyway, it was going okay but as as usual ( not that i didn't expect it) but my nan turned nasty and called me; fat, told me i have no friends (true, but i don't need it shoved in my face), no one will ever love me and so i will never mary and be alone for a ll my life. She's nice my nan isn't she? -_-

I haven't posted this in ages but please feel free to read it!

Julia's POV:

As soon as we got outside the tour bus I leaned up against the door and sighed heavily before wiping away the tears, looking up at the sun rise and wondering where the hell I'd find Sierra. "Do you know where to look?" Ray asked, normally I'd be able to sense what direction people went in but my head was in such a mess that I couldn't. That was until I looked down and saw the massive pawprints on the ground, "that way" I pointed and started following them.

I'm sad. It's the kind of sadness that comes from boredness, the kind that just sort of engulfs everything, leaving the droning of the tv and the dull rumble of the dishwasher a humming white noise. I'm not stuck on what to do. There's chores and violin and everything else waiting for me downstairs. But I'm happy, somewhat selfishly, because I'm alone. I sigh and stare at the perfect shining red on the bass cradled in my lap. It's top heavy and falls over to the neck side because the weight isn't proportioned properly and the A string buzzes when I hit it too hard without it plugged in the amp but it's perfect. Absolutely perfect and the only thing that will take my mind off nothingness. So I play. I play Black Sabbath and The Cure and Queens of The Stone Age and Nirvana and Red Hot Chili Peppers and Motionless in White and bits and pieces of things I'm trying to learn and riffs that I'd heard and liked from new songs, until my fingers ache if I stop playing for too long.

ugh so annoyed today..my dump ass phone has not worked for 4 days now cause cell towers are down apparently and someone is too lazy to fix them...motherfuckers fix that shit cause my boyfriend is getting on my nerves when he calls and I don't answer...im like uh duh I told u my phone is fucked up seriously listen...grrrrrr I cant get calls or make them and my message take forever to go through if they go through at all.. and I get bitched at..like duh I cant do nothing about the dumb towers that nobody is fixing....*sigh* venting over lol