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So, I only have a few days left of school, which are reserved for finals...and honestly...It's kind of depressing. Considering most of my closest friends are graduating, and the fact that I'll be here for one more year until I graduate AND the fact that I just...Ugh I don't even know. MCR is holding me together right now...

So I'm bored and you don't have to read this. It's not very important or interesting!

My mum is going though her second cycle of chemo, and she got back her CT results and she actually has no cancer cells left in her body! Yay! Also if TO EVERY ENEMY see's this blog I just wanted to say you are also my favourite person! c: <3

It's short. And he says it better than I can. I don't have the problem anymore cause I know what I'm gonna do with my life. Never said it'd work out but I know what I'll be doing. But sometimes I see blogs essentially saying that the person is uncertain and sometimes lacking motivation for their current path...etc. If you are one of those people, watch.

Morning everyone

Well I had a good weekend I mostly hung out at home with my step family. Anyways I've found that I don't need to make life complicated and that I don't always need to stick to my routine in the morning or whatever, In other news I'm really put a lot of work into my album but it doesn't seem as much as It did when I first started maybe it's because I'm not writing songs at this moment in time. Lastly I'm really waiting a little bit longer before I give you guys a releases time frame so my estimate isn't way off. That's all I have on my mind.

Thanks for reading and have an lovely day

In little feverent gasps I whisper prayers
And hope the snake will disappear soon
Because atop my chest it ate away at me
And no one helped as I writhed in agony
And screamed again and again.
It nibbles at the edges of my thoughts,
Slowly driving me mad with rage
As I toss and turn and plot and cry
And wish for a cure
Or a way to die
And to the skies I do shout out
"Itai, itai!"

-Chemical Insanity

*Itai (loosely) means in Japanese "It hurts"

I haven't posted anything here for a long time. Mostly because I haven't given myself any time to do anything. I guess I should start from the being. When I posted my last "blog" entry about the consequences of commiting suicide, I was seriously considering suicide as a final option for myself. I don't remember much of then. Everything was "grey" and I've tried so hard to push those memories away. In the end I found myself in the hospital. I had overdosed. In the last moment I remember, I thought I was going to die. It was one of those out of body experiances. I was laying in bed, and I was so tired. My eyes felt like a thousand pounds were weighing them down. Then I just remember black. Moving on a few months, school started again, and it was bad. I wouldn't show up for classes, I would stay home and cry and wish for death. Nothing got better like I was told it would. I was planning ways to kill myself nearly every night. I wrote suicide notes and hid knives and pills in my room.