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I'm lonely. Feel like I whine about life all the time, every time people talk to me it seems like I'm still whining about absolutely everything. I need to stop being so self absorbed.
Also, I feel lonely. not friend wise, but in terms of romance. I feel in love once. over a year ago! I wish there was someone near me who liked mcr and bands and was cute and i don't care if she's femme or butch or something in between i just wish i had a girlfriend. I want to feel loved. But the thing is, i don't want to look for a relationship because that never goes over well. I want someone to see me and think i'm cute, even when i think i'm ugly as shit. someone who can hold me when i'm sad, and i could do the same for them. I WISH that would happen. But I can always wish...
xoxo
-Z

Someday I'll have to accept that my baby bangs will never look as hot as Hayley Williams'.

Dear My Chemical Romance;

I won’t say you saved my life. I did that myself. But you, when I was battling with addiction, abuse, death, PTSD and a deep fear of myself, gave me an idea of what being okay was like. I’m doing better now, my parents and I are on speaking terms, I’m back in school, and I’m not as scared anymore.

I remember that the first concert I ever went to was yours. I was thirteen, and I went with my dad. Afterwards, on the way home, we were talking. I had just gotten out of a psychiatric ward for reasons I’m not comfortable disclosing. I put on your song, “I’m Not Okay.” Smiling, I turned to my dad and said, “This song just makes me so happy.”

He looked sad for a moment. “Why?”

"Because I’m not okay. And that’s okay. Can we go get slurpees?" I guess, sappy as it is, I realized that my problems weren’t all encompassing. No, I wasn’t okay, but I was okay with that because I knew it would get better. I also wanted a fucking slurpee. Ahaha.

Does anyone here like electronic music? I just got into it and I love it ;3; I blame Daft Punk for this lol and I never thought I'd like Skrillex but whoops (and Danger and Justice are too good-)

Okay bye.

XOXO
Sat

Llegue del colegio, trastornada por todas las ideas que me destruían la mente, jamás me sentí así, quería arrancarme la cabeza de un solo jalón, estaba lloviendo, mientras tenia los audífonos pensaba que si todo era como yo pensaba me mataría, dejaría este horrible mundo para salvar una inocente vida, llegue a mi casa, la puerta estaba cerrada con pasador, tratando de abrir esa jodida puerta casi rompo la llave, simplemente la saque y salí corriendo, me senté debajo de una cornisa a llorar, mientras escuchaba no se cual canción.

This is technically about me....And probably others that experienced the same way before and still a nothing man. So yeah....middle fingers to falling in love, and falling from love....woofruckingboohoohoolahoopoop pooppppppppp. (Yeah, I'm being a brat. Love it or shove it.)

We're just friends, right?
That's how it always been.
In my eyes, I moved forward,
But yours burned the illusions in front me.

We're just siblings, right?
That's what you always see,
Trying to be your man in armor,
But I'm just the hearth when you need.

Because I'm just an angel,
I am just an angel to you,
I am just an angel and nothing more,
I wish it wasn't so.

We're just so different, right?
That's why it never ring,
I said I'll make you mine forever,
But you don't believe in me.

Because I'm just an angel,
I am just an angel to you,
I am just an angel and nothing more,
I wish it wasn't so.

All I want is a love like cupids,
All I want is a lust like sins,