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Yea, if i could just go back in time to where i.would have a chance with Joan Jett, that'd be great.

heres a poem i wrote hope you enjoy :)
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The washing machine goes round and round. The colors blend together. The funny thing about the washing machine, is the colors are my gender.
I wish I had sorted my colors out many years ago. Because now a days, all you can say, is it’s a phase, that I don’t know.
Maybe it’s true, that I don’t have a clue if I’m green or red or blue. But may I ask why? Do I have to try? I’m simply a beautiful freaking rainbow.
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xoxo
-Z

Well... I'm Screaming Corruption ( My killjoy name). I love My Chemical Romance,( obviously), the band got together before I was born, but honestly, I love them sooo much, so it really doesn't matter. I can't say that they saved my life, but they really make me feel better at the end of the day, so I hope that A. I can think of better things to say in these posts B. Happy belated birthday Gerard Way :), and C. I hope that you all have wonderful days, because you are, we are, a beautiful family of people who are all fabulous, weither you believe it yourself or not, if it means standing up to that bully, expressing yourself, or going to that band head to toe in band merch, you are ALL wonderful in your own wonderful ways.
Screaming Corruption

So, im not sure where that came from, but its just a nice little saying. I have prom coming up, and all my friends want me to go, my mom wants me to, but i dont want to. I hate formality, and dances, and just things like that. Im an after party person. So I told them that ill ask someone, but if it dosent work, we drop it. So i decided, if im going to risk going, might as well make it worth it, and ask someone i like even thought theres a like, solid 110% theyll say no. So that ways, if i get told no, I dont have to go and win, and if they say yes, its at least someone i like, and i still win. Does this make me a bad person?

had to leave during 1st block because I was sad. I'm such a wuss. The day started off good, a little rocky but I was over all ok. Now all I can think about is the song "sarcasm" by Get Scared. I want to destroy myself. Ip myself into tiny little pieces until there's nothing less.
I want to go home.
I could go home, all I would need to do is tell Mrs. DeRocher that I feel like a slug with salt being slowly dropped on it's back. one grain at a time. I feel like today I'm just going to get worse and WORSE and WORST. And I can't stop it here.
Also, I want to use my safety box. My safety box helps me a lot and has things to distract me and help me cope. I learned most of the skills in the box at my program. I need to make a coping box for school.
I'm fading. Fuck, I'm such a melodramatic FUCK UP.
maybe some of this is because it's J's 15th birthday. And I don't like thinking about him.

Finally!! after a week full of projects and exams I'm going on vacation :)
I hope you all have good vacations and enjoy your free time. I think all I'm gonna do is read, play video games, hear music, and be with my family.
So remember to...
Keep your boots tight, keep your gun close and die with your mask on if you've got to

Happy Birthday, I hope you had a GREAT time with your family and friends! xx