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So lonely....

VenomHeart — Sun, 19 May 2013 05:44:20 +0000

This feeling never goes away. Fuck my life. I just get this sinking feeling in my chest at night right before I go to bed. I hate going to bed alone. I don't want to sleep alone. I want Destin to be there so I can curl up in his arms and rest easy for once instead of crying my eyes out every night. I think he gets annoyed with me because I say that to him every other night and he just doesn't understand. I don't think he ever gets lonely without me there.... My life sucks...

Signed,
--Venom Heart

Demons Ate My Sense Away

Chemical_Insanity — Sun, 19 May 2013 05:25:30 +0000

Just stay awhile until the dust has cleared
Onto the chairs we sat in just moments ago
Before the ogres fell through the attic of my brain
And sent knowledge to litter our council

Come,
Sit with me
Join the world inside my mind
Where my breath tastes like the mushrooms
That grow from my ears
And from the root of the problem.
Eat yourself empty on gallons of air
So dank and stale as it is
Because no one thought to let the door open
Or let me out.
But drink yourself dry
And find yourself lost
Just like I have
Because it's lonely in here without your company

Float inside the ground with me
Travel six feet down with me
And feast upon the flesh divine
So fierce and hot is my will
And your conscious the butter that I spread thin
Over jellied eyes and smiles grim
But in truth,
I think I like you
And not in the kiddy sort of way
But the sort of way where you're a welcome intrusion
And my mind the issue we fight together

-Chemical Insanity

Hello all, for once ill admit i need someone right now....

Linna — Sun, 19 May 2013 05:23:59 +0000

Ive been through a lot lately. I lost my bestfriend this month because her dad beat the hell out of her. The boy i thought i could trust with my life let me down, and a lot of other stuff i dont wanna mention.... but i really need someone. I rarely admit it when im upset. Ecspecialy when i need someone to see past my smile. One person really cheered me up on may 10th... and i dont even know his name. My second bestfriend, i fell in love with him. I thought he was perfect. but he just hurt me. But then.... i went to a concert and met the drummer for the band "The Conjuring" and he saw past the smile in two seconds. Only two people i know have been able to see past the smile. Caleb and the Drummer. I regret never learning his name. He helpped me through some of the darkness by simply saying, litteraly two seconds after we met, "Hey, i know this may be weird sounding, but if you need me, im here for you. I know we dont really know eachother, and thats fine.

Infection of the Mind

Chemical_Insanity — Sun, 19 May 2013 05:06:43 +0000

I'll never amount to you,
Ms. Holier-than-thou
Though I guess I'm not really trying to
So I guess we should just flow our seperate ways
And forget that we knew eachother
Because if I see you again then I'll slit your throat
And that's a fucking promise.

I think it's safe to say that you disappoint me
Likewise, I've let you down
But it doesn't really matter
Cause in the haze of our reflections,
So muffled by radiant heat
And thrown together with sparks of hate,
I see what we've become
For we're very alike, you see
Both thick-willed
Each to her own,
A wild-child unbridled,
Mounting atop a great failure as we ride away,
Into the consequence we hold.

In truth, I'll never amount to you
But I'll always try
And I'll always fail
Cause that's how I was programmed to be,
Like you were made to be a bitch,
Like you were made
To betray me

-Chemical Insanity

You know you've had a weird week when....

Chemical_Insanity — Sun, 19 May 2013 04:16:21 +0000

-Your brother turns into a seaweed creature
-Your ribs drip black sparkles
-You've eaten so many stuffed mushrooms that you feel like YOU'RE the one that's stuffed, and your intestines are a ticking time bomb, waiting to spread your entrails throughout the room
-You get the sudden urge to build a small Japanese-style tower out of legos
-You close your eyes and all you can see are clothes
-You say 'fuck' several times around your mother, and she doesn't fucking care (really funny story haha...)
-Literally NONE of the stores you visit, be it on foot or online, have a decent selection of hoodies.
-You realize Walmart has the WORST selection of bathing suits
-People you thought you knew have turned against you.
-You realize how a raven is like a writing desk.
-You notice that, on average, it takes you two to three watches of a Disney movie to connect all of the dots in said Disney movie.
-You have Disney-ception

The World is Ugly

ExplosiveGrenade 1 — Sun, 19 May 2013 03:54:44 +0000

But you guys are beautiful to me . :)

relaspe

music martyr — Sun, 19 May 2013 02:22:47 +0000

I just want to so badly. Where no one can see it. I feel like there is no escape, i want it all to end. Im nonthing but a fuck up. I jusy want it all to end. I need help, its so hard. I just......its so hard. These promises and butterflies are the only things keeping me alive.

This is my current hairstlye.

Zankoku_sinner — Sun, 19 May 2013 01:42:27 +0000

This is the hairstyle I am currently sporting. It doesn't look exactly the same anymore, mainly due to me having laid on it. (I gotta sleep, you know. xD)

The point of this blog is: I like this hairstyle. I'm thinking of making it my trademark hairdo. Also, this will be my Killjoy's default style. So, for an idea of what Electric Rose's hair looks like, just imagine that hairstyle, but purple, with the bangs blue-black. This will be more important later, but for now, just enjoy my badass hair. ^_^

So Long, But Not Goodnight.

NtAfrd2WlkThsWrldAln — Sun, 19 May 2013 01:41:18 +0000

Wow. I haven't been on since the breakup. So its been a pretty long time. The breakup really destroyed me. And I just started listening to MCR about 2 years ago. They were the first rock band I listened to. They got me into rock. They helped me through my thick and thin. The big brothers I never had. I swore I would never go to a rock concert until I went to there's first. Now I must break that promise, unless I want to be a rock concert virgin. I still don't understand why it happened. People told me "It's okay Gabriella. Really. You still have the music.". But they didn't understand. Its not the same. But, I now know that they will still be forever in my heart. They will STILL help me through my thick and thin. After the breakup I completely shut myself out of the MCR world. I stopped listening to them because it hurt to much. I couldn't bear it. I was angry and confused. its been so long since I've been on. Too long. But I will not say goodnight. I will not say goodbye.

I can't shake this feeling

emilykilljoy22 — Sun, 19 May 2013 01:24:12 +0000

I feel really weird and I can't shake this feeling off. I took something to help me concentrate and be more productive and now I feel weird. I've felt this way before and I don't like it. Right now it's kinda mangable it's not as bad as it usually is. My brain feels like it's going 100 miles an hour. I'm starting to worry about things that I shouldn't even worry about. I feel bored like I can't think of something new to do to keep me occupied. I can't really explain how I feel. I feel like I'm going to go somewhat start to self-harm again crazy and I don't like it. I'm kinda afraid but I'm going to stay strong. Anyways I feel a little better writing this down somewhere.