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" Ray Manzarek, Founding Member of The Doors, Passes Away at 74

Ray Manzarek, keyboardist and founding member of The Doors, passed away today at 12:31PM PT at the RoMed Clinic in Rosenheim, Germany after a lengthy battle with bile duct cancer. He was 74. At the time of his passing, he was surrounded by his wife Dorothy Manzarek, and his brothers Rick and James Manczarek.

yeah long story short I set MCR's cover of Desolation Row to a video I made for school and my entire first hour had to sit through a minute and a half of awesome music.

So I actually thought I had dropped enough hints, flirted and made it subtlety obvious I had a thing for this guy. And I also thought he had started to like me back. Cloud nine basically.

That was until this weekend when he talks about still having a crush on my friend (and the last time he mentioned this was like 1 year ago so it seemed like he had gone off her)

I was heartbroken for the first time in my life. What's worse is (me being one of his close friends) I had to then smile and give him some advice on how to get her to like him.

I really love my friend to pieces but I keep getting little sparks of jealously every time he mentions her. He always seems so affectionate towards her and I'm back to being one of the guys.

I know I can't be her but sometimes I wish I was.

Okay. So i've been a real downer on here lately and i'm sorry. I've been talking to some of you guys and you are super awesome =) There's this one guy especially, (He'll know who he is. Hopefully) who has really helped me and i think is amazing. You all are awesome it's just that i've been talking with him the most and he's made me feel so much better about myself. So thank you! All of you. =)

I LOVE YOU GUYS!!

~ Laura xx

Ok, so last night I had this horrific dream. In it, I broke up with my boyfriend of 2 years to go out with this guy who was just an acquaintance my Sophomore year.

Well, my boyfriend was really upset that I broke up with him (over the phone, seriously) and I just didn't care I guess (horribly unlike me). So, afterwards, I regretted my choice deeply, and within minutes, I started blowing up his phone: no answer. I texted him that I love him, and that I'm sorry and I regret it and I love him more than I could ever love anybody, but he didn't respond.

Well, come to find out, he committed suicide. I woke up immediately after to a text from him:
"Good morning beautiful. You're everything to me, and I'm lucky and honored to mean anything to you."

Hey!

I figured with all my talk about my weight loss I'd give y'all an idea of how bad I was and a rough estimate of myself right now (though I've lost a few since last month). The first picture is of me in Berlin, Germany in May of 2009 (Fancy that, the same month we're in right now). That was at my heaviest- shy of 200.

The second one is of me at Pedernales Falls State Park in Johnson City, Texas last month. That is me at around 171. I wish I had a picture from this month, but I haven't taken any worthy of the Internet. I just figured some of you might be curious as to the difference.
-AJ

So, I only have a few days left of school, which are reserved for finals...and honestly...It's kind of depressing. Considering most of my closest friends are graduating, and the fact that I'll be here for one more year until I graduate AND the fact that I just...Ugh I don't even know. MCR is holding me together right now...