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soo i know i might have already posted this literature but idk what else to say xD it was amazing <33333

*written Wednesday*

Last night was... the BEST night of my life :) 100%

so i love MCR, always will no matter what, and will forever be a killjoy ♥ but for a while now, even before the break up i was getting heavy into Hollywood Undead, and i have to say they're my favorite band now. I absolutely love them.

today was my boyfriends birthday and i planned on taking him to the park for a nice relaxing picnic and what happens? IT FUCKING RAINS! it ruined everything. he didn't want to go to the park because everything was wet and my plans got canceled. i really wanted to do something special today. and i hate when i can't do things when i planned to do them. ugh well i'm surprising him on saturday so that should be fun. still pissed though.

I have literally been stuck home sick ALL WEEK. This is the third time i've been sick in two months. It seems every other week i'm coming down with a cold, the flue, or some other strange illness. What makes it worse is finals are next week, so I miss all the review sessions and get none of the study guides.
So here I am, sitting next to the toilet blogging about my nonexistent life.
Also, my mother's not letting me go out with my friends friday.I understand, since i'm sick, but i've literally been trying to get out of this house for months and she hasn't let me. Whatever, back to cough syrup and my ipod.

so i'm learning to play guitar, and i have a beautiful ibanez acoustic, which is great. But I would absolutely love to play electric. I have my heart set on this little squier strat, mostly because it's cheap and doesn't sound like shit. I plan to buy that and my parents said they would put money towards it too, but my dad says i have to find an amp or else the guitar is useless. So I need help from anyone who knows anything about guitars and amps to direct me towards a good (or even just acceptable) inexpensive amp. It has to be inexpensive because well I'm a teenager without a job. any help would be greatly appreciated!

Today was strangely brilliant. I missed first period this morning as I had another dental appointment for my really screwed-up teeth (which was great in itself, obviously) but the cafe within the hospital sells Starbucks. That's pretty self-explanatory XD To improve my day further, Jeremy Kyle was playing on the screen as I scraped the mountain of foam off my skinny latte. *-* I swear I'm the only person who feels immoral with a dash of horror and total delight as they watch that programme. Despite all my worrying and whatnot yesterday, I feel a lot better today. These things always pass. . By far the best bit of today was realising that due to my excessive worrying yesterday, I didn't even appreciate fully the fact my Batman comic finally arrived. That should be a crime. (Hee hee, pun...). I don't know how long this good mood will last but I'm going to enjoy it while it's here :D

I just. wanna....

Rock
Run
Live.

I'm not okay. I'm okay with that. ^_^

today i got rejected by my friend, Henry.
i asked him, "would you ever date me?"
he answered, "uhh... i only think of you as a friend. okay?"
i reluctantly replied with, "okay..."

i wanted to cry but there was too many people around. why does no one love me? now im all depressed. "All i know is no one should have to be alone."
i wish i wasnt alone, but i am. forever....

~Lexi Shadow