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Weird
I've heard it enough times
For the image to have been bleached and burned repeatedly
And yet I still cannot define it.
I've typed the damned word so many times
That now it's structure looks scribbled
And I can't tell if it's the right word or not

Weird
I am it.
I live and breath it's very essence,
And it's holds me close in branched out arms
It's thorns poking my vulnerable sides.

Weird...
What is it?
Is it coming to the realization
That a raven and a writer's desk
Are so tightly bound?
Is it screaming to the skies in an elfen tongue
Only to realize that you're still awake
And no amount of cursing will bring that dragon to you?
Or perhaps it is the supernatural
Like the coincidence of the barrel being empty
When I tried to fire one through me the night before last
And knew I had filled it up before I started.

Weird
I can't explain it
I just know that I am it
And whatever it may be,
Be it fucking psychotic
Or devoid of feelings,

Last night my school had our Senior Ball, ohmygosh it was a good night! :D
Nothing much else to say, I just wanted to put some photos up :) My mum made my dress and it's sorta loosely based on Helena's dress :) My best friend recognised it, that truely made my night ^_^

This feeling never goes away. Fuck my life. I just get this sinking feeling in my chest at night right before I go to bed. I hate going to bed alone. I don't want to sleep alone. I want Destin to be there so I can curl up in his arms and rest easy for once instead of crying my eyes out every night. I think he gets annoyed with me because I say that to him every other night and he just doesn't understand. I don't think he ever gets lonely without me there.... My life sucks...

Signed,
--Venom Heart

Ive been through a lot lately. I lost my bestfriend this month because her dad beat the hell out of her. The boy i thought i could trust with my life let me down, and a lot of other stuff i dont wanna mention.... but i really need someone. I rarely admit it when im upset. Ecspecialy when i need someone to see past my smile. One person really cheered me up on may 10th... and i dont even know his name. My second bestfriend, i fell in love with him. I thought he was perfect. but he just hurt me. But then.... i went to a concert and met the drummer for the band "The Conjuring" and he saw past the smile in two seconds. Only two people i know have been able to see past the smile. Caleb and the Drummer. I regret never learning his name. He helpped me through some of the darkness by simply saying, litteraly two seconds after we met, "Hey, i know this may be weird sounding, but if you need me, im here for you. I know we dont really know eachother, and thats fine.

-Your brother turns into a seaweed creature
-Your ribs drip black sparkles
-You've eaten so many stuffed mushrooms that you feel like YOU'RE the one that's stuffed, and your intestines are a ticking time bomb, waiting to spread your entrails throughout the room
-You get the sudden urge to build a small Japanese-style tower out of legos
-You close your eyes and all you can see are clothes
-You say 'fuck' several times around your mother, and she doesn't fucking care (really funny story haha...)
-Literally NONE of the stores you visit, be it on foot or online, have a decent selection of hoodies.
-You realize Walmart has the WORST selection of bathing suits
-People you thought you knew have turned against you.
-You realize how a raven is like a writing desk.
-You notice that, on average, it takes you two to three watches of a Disney movie to connect all of the dots in said Disney movie.
-You have Disney-ception

I just want to so badly. Where no one can see it. I feel like there is no escape, i want it all to end. Im nonthing but a fuck up. I jusy want it all to end. I need help, its so hard. I just......its so hard. These promises and butterflies are the only things keeping me alive.