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As the title suggests I'm going to be giving my thoughts on parenting And before you guys ask no I am not a parent. Also before I get to the meat of this blog I should tell you guys my religious upbringing cause it's going to come up. I was born into a Catholic family but my household was non practicing (for the most part). So my parents raised me to believe that there's some higher power that loves you and to respect everyone belief system As best you can. So that's how I became Agnostic ( which is in between being religious and non religious) So without feather delay on to the meat of this blog.

So today I was feeling EXTRA sad about My Chemical Romance's break up.... I can't believe it's been almost 2 years since they broke up. *SOB* So, I've been blaring my favorite album, 'Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge'.
Jumping around my room as my heart pours out the lyrics to my favorite song, 'I'm not Okay'
The song speaks to me. Makes my heart sing. I am filled with... this amazing feeling when I hear the intro...
any way, I wrote a poem..

Roses are dead,
Violets are grey,
MCR broke up,
I'm not okay

Just sent them a message. I don't even know why.
I said:
hey
I said I wouldn't talk to you ever again
But I'm really curious of what your situation is now
Where are you staying? Are you in school?
Z
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We were 2012-13. Why can't I ever fucking move on. And I've been doing so much better this month. Hardly thinking of them. I want to know if they're out of the group home. If they're in a house or a hospital. If anyone is considering adopting them. If they ever think of me. If they know that they're the one in my mind torchering me every. single. day. That I can't be in a relationship with anyone cause I can't forget them. We were 13-14. It's pathetic I can't let go long enough to see just how fucked they left me. I WAS THIRTEEN what type of human can't move past a relationship form when I was 13??? I can't even go into Waltham, the town he used to live in.

Ok, so im not sure which is bothering me more, my english grade, or question of character. Lets start with the more easily fixed of the two. My english grade (Virtual class) is fucking tanking because of hamlet. Its not that i dont understand it, its because i have to take all the test off memory of the play when i read it two years ago. (Sophomore year) and im getting straight sixteens and twenties out of forty. Ive dropped to a fifty six percent in the class because of it. I have an exam on it and after that its done, but i cant find a copy of the book anywhere, and it doesn't have a link with it to read and work with! So im going to hope theres enough left in the course so i can bring it up some to at least pass. (D is for Diploma). The other problem ive had lately is ive always introduced myself as bi, for i find both men and women attractive, But lately ive felt. diffrent.

So after thinking i was working this weekend it turned out i wasn't, so i looked up tickets for the Brighton Tattoo Convention and it was to expensive. But my Fiancee entered a competition for a pair of tickets and she bloody WON!!
I was so excited, so on Saturday we went and saw some amazing artists and incredible tattoos. we live just down the road from where it was so it was great. We saw Dan Smith and Phil Kyle who i have followed, and other artists from a shop called Jayne Doe that i have had work done at, so good! bought some cool earrings and a t shirt.
after that we had afternoon tea (sandwiches, cakes and scones) in a hotel on the sea front, then down to the pier and played some games, popped into a pub and then back home for some food.
It was the best day we have had for ages.
We don't get many days off together, so i was extra special. Love my lady to bits :-)