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hey all you mcr fans i havent been on in a long while...im just kinda feelin down and it really sucks cuz the last day of school is supposed to be HELL YA FUCK YOU, IM FREE! but right now its just like bleck and I really cant get myself to be excited. and my ipods dead as well as my phone and im stuck at school for another 1/2 hour till i get picked up and all my "friends" ditched me...sigh....anyways ya im not gonna waist anymore of your time.
<3 u all - Zan aka: propane color explosion

Dear world i dont know what im here for i dont even know why i exist i dont know what i want and i dont know what it is that you expect of me im a waist of time and space idont seem to exist except to myself anyways so i guess that doesnt matter i wish i could just know what to do though im alone and in the dark live by each day what is home what is love neather really exist i just dont care anymore i dont care if i live of the skin on my back or rot in a fuckin cell in prison fuck you im done i dont care what is trendy i'll wear what i want talk how i want and love who i want go where i want the hell with rules and order i just dont give a fuck about what anyone thinks i'll die alone on the street with nothing i dont nead help....you do

Im bored to tears my parents are at there stupid party and im stuck at home... so i watched a movie where everyone was unrealisticly happy and its makin me feel really sad cuz im like all alone... anyways anyone have any green day vid sugestions for youtube? (I nead some St. Jimmy)

oh my god i had a snow day 2day and my computer hasnt been working so I'v been stuck in my house w/ absolutly nothing to do its been horrible! I almost lost my mind. it was fine at first watched movies that I havent in a while played a little wii but then the power went out dont ask me how im not a genious it just did so i had nothing to do NOTHING! So i went outside and started to build a snow man (but b/c im retarded i had trouble) anyways i got fed up w/that really quickly and had to find somthing else to do...nothing anyways i neva thought I'd say this but i wish i had school 2day...so ya wht exciting things hapend 2day 4 u ppls?

stuck in comp sci reviewing for a test 2marrow i really wish it was the weekend already or even better winter vacation.

wow.......ok its been a long time..........um not much new............school, school, school...etc. but wht about everyone else im sure u ppls have more interesting lives. oh so this guy @ school (extremely sweet) decided to go out of his way to make a copy of the new album (cuz my internet doesnt work @ home b/c of the fuckin usb >=( ) oh did i mention tht im doing this while @ school, im supposed to be doing somthing productive but i dont have anything productive to do so that doesnt really work)) anyways....so i couldnt buy it on itunes and there was no way my parents are gonna drive me tho get an mcr abum (cuz they dont like them and have no tast in music) and he copeyed the cover and everything hes sooo sweet. anyways.................idk tell me whts goin on in your lives.

Ok who thinks Mikey Way looks amazingly hot with glasses? (I DO!!!)

It’s been a while and u ppl probably don’t care, but I am going to tell you about my past weekend (and Friday). Ok so Friday we didn’t have class’s cuz we went to a ropes course for a whole day; It was cold damp and we were in a forest. So...ya I got stuck w/ the group who did the harder course [but we got the zip line teehee(is that two words /=\...I don’t know)anyways] I finally got up the cargo net(which killed my arms; especially b/c the trees move) I had to come back down cuz we were out of time =(. ok well after the school day was over I went to the movies w/ a couple friends (yays) and we went to see Iron Man 2, but I didn't really get 2 see it cuz I was "talking" (one of my friends decided he was going 2 text me the whole movie ((that was k, though we had a really random discussion)). k then the weekend was boring I cleaned the house, did my home work, texted and watched Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban.

I'm supposed to be doing a history project right now and its supposed to be a newspaper article from the 1920's on fashion (cuz I'm so fashionable lol) anyways I'm doing wedding dresses but all the sites i can find are ether u must have an account or tell very little.

Ok so my brother got a new neurologist cuz his last one kept trying to change his meds. And she said it should end when he hits puberty cuz he only has seizures at night and there is no history at all on either side of our family for seizure disorders. So my brother went to go see his new neurologist a couple days ago and this guy told him he has epilepsy. And I’m just so fuckin mad right now I mean there has to be a mistake my brother can’t have epilepsy he just can’t...