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deathnote obsessed

i must be obsessed with death note

i have watched the anime...all three live action movies....and am reading the manga right now......

i am about to cry because i just finashed L change the world.....

poor L......
*tear* poor Near.....


okay enough crying over anime

death note has inspired me so much in these last few days (i probly started watching it tuesday? couldnt watch it again untill friday....

so yeah.......

so i have decided to do two things....profile a fake character (L) and also i am going to somehow spread happyness through my schoool using an alias and never revealing who scary accurate!!!!

1. When do you feel your best?

a) in the morning
b) during the afternoon and early evening
c) late at night [X]

2. You usually walk

a) fairly fast, with long steps
b) fairly fast, with little steps
c) less fast head up, looking the world in the face [X]
d) less fast, head down
e) very slowly

3. When talking to people you

a) stand with your arms folded
b) have your hands clasped[X]
c) have one or both your hands on your hips
d) touch or push the person to whom you are talking
e) play with your ear, touch your chin, or smooth your hair

4. When relaxing, you sit with

a) your knees bent with your


i'm so stressed
i dont even know where to begin

and that stupid constant thinkig that always happens in my fricking head

why is it that when normal people are tired or have a headache they can just stop....and stop thinking and stop anyliseing and stop reacting

but me

i always go
my mind is always working 2 steps ahead of whrere it should be....i hate it!!!!

why cant i just sstop thinking?

also i realy want to test out phychology on someone but i just dont have anyone to test it on

i dont know how i'm ever going to learn people if i dont practice......*sigh*

also if you could pray/wish me


not that anyone actualy cares
but if anyone knows what to do if the guitar strings on my fender STARcaster electric guitar get stuck in the back of the guitar and wont come out of the bridge

i would apreceate you telling me

because if i cant fix it i'm selling it and quiting music

and by quiting music...i mean i'm probly going to end up being a plumber....honestly i dont care about anything but music

music is my life

and i'm thinking of quiting

yeah the self harm hint is very obvious.....
although i wouldnt ever do it

sorry im just stressed/depressed

can someone help me?


I went for a walk today and decided to venture into the underbrush and thorns to pick a few raspberrsys. I ended up haveing my hands compleatly full. While walking back home I watched the juices drip from my hands like the blood of my enemies, and silently said to myself. "Revenge tastes just as sweet."

And that my friends is why i dont write a fanfic. Anything i write is mercilessly full of cliches.

anyway that was just what i was thinking but in story form....
i'm thinking about studying machiavelli psychology....
if anyone wants to volunteer to be my practice dummie please feel free to


whyyy did L have to die?!?!?!?!?!?

oh and uhm....light and L remind me of 'kill all your friends' mostly 'i was killin before killin was cool' lol

poor L
i miss L

eff you light!

in case you didnt realise by now
i'm talking about deathnote
obviously from the pictures i adore L
L and near so far are my favorites


when i was in the second grade i was tested at school for ADD
my parents did the only thing they could do being the people that they are and refused to beleive that there was anything wrong with me

so they got me tested by a specialist who wasnt involved with the school system....

the fact of the matter was that my second grade teacher was the only teacher in the second grade who didnt have a learning disability child in her classroom

and she had a background of hateing my family

so after spending second grade openly treated like a LD kid i advanced to third grade....mdterm rolled around and

I'm RELIGIOUS, so I MUST shove my beliefs down your throat.(FUCK IT!)

If you hate them too... REPOST!

I SPEAK MY MIND, so I MUST be a bitch.
I'm ARAB, so I MUST be a terrorist.
I'm SKINNY, so I MUST be anorexic.
I'm EMO, so I MUST cut my wrists.
I'm BLACK, so I MUST carry a gun.
I'm HISPANIC, so I MUST be dirty.
I'm ASIAN, so I MUST be smart.
I'm JEWISH, so I MUST be greedy.
I'm GAY, so I MUST have AIDS.
I'm a LESBIAN, so I MUST have a sex-tape.
I'm OVERWEIGHT, so I MUST have a problem with self control.
I'm RELIGIOUS, so I MUST shove my beliefs down your throat.
I'm an ATHEIST, so I MUST hate the world.


yeah...happy 4th american killjoys

too bad our founding fathers would be sick if they saw where the world is now

stareing down into hell

its all bullshit anyway
oh well

so a few years ago i had my first experience with seeing something i loved die in front of my eyes....

i fucking hate the fourth of july


[x] Achluophobia - Fear of darkness...
[x] Acrophobia - Fear of heights...
[ ] Agliophobia - Fear of pain...
[ ] Agoraphobia - Fear of open spaces or crowds...
[ ] Agyrophobia - Fear of crossing the street...
[x] Aichmophobia - Fear of needles or pointed objects...
[ ] Amaxophobia - Fear of riding in a car...
[ ] Androphobia - Fear of men...
[ ] Anginophobia - Fear of angina or choking
[ ] Anthrophobia - Fear of flowers...
[ ] Anthropophobia - Fear of people or society...
[ ] Aphenphosmphobia - Fear of being touched...
[ ] Arachnophobia - Fear of spiders...
[ ] Arithmophobia - Fear