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had a horrible weird confusing dream last night

will blog it later if i dont forget it....

i realy don't understand

why it is that people think they are so accepting just because they are gay or bi ...then turn around and bag on straight people for being straight.....i am fuckin sick of people hateing me at school because im not gay!!!damnit!!!

i do not hate gay people....i think they are just gay...wow no big deal...what i hate is people who judge me for being something (especialy when they are hypocritical about it) and when people try to justify being of an alternat sexuality

wow!!! your fucking gay!

*sigh*

i wish my problems where concreat
i wish it was something i had proof of
i wish it was something that didnt involve my mental state
i wish my parents had the same amount of money as most middle class homes....

i wish my issue wasnt in my head
i wish i could know if i was sane...
i wish i had real friends
not kids who i just hang with to look like im not alone
i wish i had people i could trust
i wish i wasnt afraid
i wish people cared

i don't understand why no one likes me

to describe my life is like that simple plan song 'im just a kid'

im just a kid...life is a nightmare....im all

pissed!!!!!

ok so im sure i blogged about the stupid fsvor my church has to do for another church
they have to sing as a group

THEY FUCKING KNOW NOTHING!

THEY DONT KNOW HOW TO READ TIME
THEY DONT KNOW HOW TO TELL FLATS AND SHARPS
THEY DONT KNOW WHAT THEIR VOCAL RANGE IS

AND DAMNIT THEY DONT WANT MY HELP!
they think god is going to magicly put them in order

im not agnostic or anything but honestly?
what the fuck?

and me...being a music obsessed kid.....i know what im doing...and the pianist knows a little and this one girl knows a little

but shit if im not calmed down by sunday fuckin eavning im not

obsession

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<3 you killjoys

what do you get when you cross an agnostic a dislexic and an insomniac?

a dude who stays up all night wondering if there is a dog

i found out today

My career plan is not supported at all with my family. I am going to have to move out when I start my band. My dad seems to think that rock music is bad and needs justified.

Here is my justification: Music. Means. Everything. To. Me. Nothing more. Music is what i love and care about. It is all i want. The style in wich i play is my own fucking buisness and no one can tell me how to live. Think of me what you will, i dont give a fuck. In the end i will die happy knowing I furfilled my dreams.

I found out that my dad hates what I am over a simple conversation about the singing at

bored

the whole time i was at church i was thinking two things

'why are you not gerard way'

and omfgwtf that guy sounds EXACTLY like david bowie!!!!'

after church we went to wendies....and when we walked in my uncle saw a church across the road and decided to go check it out...well it was a penecostal church i guess....but the weird thing (i have a penecostal friend and she said nothing about this.....also no disrespect to any religion i mention in this post i love all of you...) they would get in the floor and fake seisures and speak in like parsel-toung or some shit

it was fuckin scary..... i

=[

*sarcasim* yay! i get to go listen to crappy singing at church today

i swear if someone has a banjo and looks ANYTHING like an omish man i will KILL someone!

ah!!! i HATE old people music!!!!!!!!! why cant they have a christian post hardcore band come sing to us??!?!?!?!?
damn banjo music!

XD

borreeedddddddddd!

i have a bunch of tests to do all next week =[

and then after that i think i have to do the fitness exam.....D=

i realy hope i get to stalk that old lady and play teenagers realy loud behind her....XD

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