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summer<3

i dont care if im still in school technicly
summer is here
you wanna know how i know?

i have been drinking ice water nonstop =]

and uhmm

my parents are making me hate life...and religion

im the rebelous type....
mom is forceing me to wear all this shit to church
dresses and skirts

and today i heard my dad saying
'we expect too much of her..she is just like every other teenager.. she is not different she is not special shes just like every other teenager ever'

now obviously i heard this while playing the guitar....so i started crying hopelessly into the instrument.....and i realised

my life is a fuckin country song
shit

and uhm....more pressure from church people
still trying to find the truth
(give up religion or give up rebellous, rock loveing, and basicly alot more things about me)

why did god make me this way if it is wrong?

heres the thing though
i beleive in the bible and all that stuff...but i dont agree with the veiws of my church

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WHY THE FUCK WOULD A PREIST NEED AN ACORDIAN?!?!?!?!!?

hh im so sick of being used!!!i was in church this fuckin morning! and they were talking about how well they did at the singing thig last week... they sucked...the acoustics in the church were great though =]

annyway they said they wanted a bass and a guitar 'to complement the piano' what ever that means...so they looked at a few adult males...and said..'you should learn the bass' they both dissmissed the request...and someone spoke up and said her boy friend could play the bass....wellll he said he wasnt good...and then these music illiterate fucks said 'all you need is to learn a few chords'

that pised me off....so then they started looking for a guitarist....

one of the sick music vultures looked at my mom and said
'cant your daughter play 'geetar?' (they talk in a fucked up accent like everyone else in this shit-town)(honestly i think i was born into 'deliverance' or 'wrong turn')

mom says 'yeah but she plays rock' *a few people turn and stare at me* she's good too

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mehh

Canada, dude we gota talk. We have always sent great talent your way. How the hell do you get off sending us the shit you pull out of your ass? First Avril lavigne, now Justin Beiber? What in hell are you sending us next?! Dude, stick to Maple syrup, Hockey, and moosi. I'm so sory Canada, but im dumping you for Britain.

Love always

America

P.S. You want sara palin?

**EDIT**
this is a joke guys i realy fucking love canada....and Britain =]
sory for spelling errors...combo of keybord malfunction and bad spelling^^

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okay

so i realise now that no matter what you say you will always treat me the same way...and i may not understand why your like a father one minuit and the next you can't stand to see my face, but it is how you are...and dispite what you said...it's how you always will be....

im so sorry i can not love you like a daughter is suppos to love their father but its how I am.

one day when im gone i hope you look back and wonder if i realy ment it when i said 'love you dad'
because i don't

Killjoys if i don't make it out alive remember me
tell them to keep fighting

XOXO

SHADOW

*post script* if you post a comment saying 'msg me' i probly won't...if you want to talk to me about anything you can message me...

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when im at my happiest

so thanks to Alex Day..i have been thinking about what makes me the happiest...

so here you go:

I think I am at my happiest when i get home from school, and see what makes my life worthwile. Of course I love my family and my killjoys and echelon. When I pick up my guitar, and just pluck a few strings, just to hear the sound of it. The simmering silver strings vibrating under my hand. That is when I am at my happiest

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auhhhh!

that weird disorenting moment when you realise you have been sitting in one position for far too long while thinking of practicing guitar or doing something else usefull and you end up not acomplishing anything that day....ughhhhh!

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donovin you are my hero.....<3 how you handeled the situation

donovin you are my hero.....<3 how you handeled the situation

he seems so passionate when he says 'who are you?'

i love this guy i just wanna hug him and tell him god is fuckin bursting with pride as am i because someone used god to show tolerance for once....see guys....not all religous people are asses!

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*casual salute*

"Here's to the kids who were never okay,

who brought their bullets in return for your love.

To the kids who live life on the murder scene, seeking revenge on those who wronged them.

To the kids who lost their fear of falling,

who refuse to drink to show their support for Gerard's decision.

Here's to the kids who sign their name.

The kids who love demolition style, who would end their days in a hail of bullets for thy lover. Here's to the kids who will spend their nights dreaming of what life would be like if they were G. F. R. B. or M. instead of partying with others.

Here's to the kids who play with action figures instead of doing homework.

Here's to the kids who mourned over the loss of Mikey's glasses,

here's to the kids who put bars and X's over their eyes to be just like their heroes.

Here's to the kids who scream fuck you to anyone who starts shit with them.

Here's to the kids who believe they're vampires, just like the MCR boys.

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meh

1. What would you do if Gerard Way kissed you
i i dont know.......hmm wanna find out ;D
2. Would you be happy if Frank Iero was your best friend?
hell yeah!

3. If you were to choose who your big brother woud be, which MCR band member would it be?
Frank i think?

4. Would you name your first born male child after an MCR band member?
no kids for me XD

5. What MCR song has inspired you the most?
famous last words

6. In your opinion, what is the saddest MCR song?
the ghost of you

7. If Gerard Way and Frank Iero were falling off a cliff, which one would you save?
i would jump too.....

8. What is your favorite Gerard Way quote?
when your life flashes before your eyes, makes sure its worth watching

9. IF you had the chance to pick between spending a whole day with mikey, or no sweets for a year what or who would you chose?
i would pick mikey =D

Other than someone in MCR, who is your inspiration/ hero?
jared leto

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RE: weird

ok about my weird dream.....

i lived in this old house...think....rotton wood....it looks like hell ....and i lived there with alot of people...

well my little nephew who had been haveing problems lived with me....and he was murdered one night....and i found his body and i talked to his ghost in my dreams...(ikr? a dream in a dream??)