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you're worth more than your mistakes

This is just a little dump of thoughts. Lately I've been feeling like a total screw-up, thought about a lot, and this is sort of the conclusion I came to~

It took me so long to realize that you are worth so much more than your mistakes. Just because you screwed up majorly a couple of times, doesn't mean it automatically defines who you are as a person. Mistakes are there so we can learn from them, and grow from them to become a better person. Of course, there are consequences that we suffer, which gives us the option to repeat the same mistake again, or not, and grow from it. Lately, some of the closest people in my life only see me for my mistakes, which hurts a lot, and brings my confidence down so much..

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Would like someone new to talk to

So I've been ill with this nasty cold, so I stayed home from school today. And of course, I finished a whole season of Doctor Who, while sipping lots of tea, and snuggling with my dog. I also stayed home because I was really depressed, as well. A majority of my day was spent, crying, watching Doctor Who, and sleeping. Yipdeefriggendoo for depression, and feeling ill! .-. Tomorrow I'm not going to school because I honestly physically can't, and I am really weak at the moment. The only time I got out of bed today was when I went to eat and shower. Any-who, since tomorrow is more than likely going to be just as worse as today, I figured I'd ask for someone to talk to! I've only made one close friend on this website, and I figured I'd like to get to know more of you, and just have someone to talk to. Feel free to message me! :3

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dumping my thoughts

So right now I'm wrapped in about 2839333 blankets, because it is freezing in my house and I'm having some Mac and cheese, typing this blog, while listening to Shane Dawson's new podcast. AND OH FUCK HEART BURN I AM EATING TOO FAST. Well, while I'm in the middle of having a heart burn, I figured I'd just dump some of my thoughts. First thing's first, I got pokemon black version 2, and it is amazing! My friends are telling me that I should've waited for X and Y, but unfortunately, I don't have a 3ds Dx. My friend is trying to sell his for $150 but I'm a broke little peasant ;_;. Besides being broke, I am so afraid for Thursday, because it's the Cory Monteith tribute episode on Glee and holy feels. I have also been watching Doctor Who..Well not really. It's been like 2 months since I've seen a doctor who episode..I'm only on season 2, and I just really want to catch up before the new season starts. (Oh be prepared for random changes of subjects) You know what I love?

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Life at the moment

Heyya guys, it's been awhile since I've last made a blog. Well, just a little update: I've been looking at apartments with my mom and dad since they're getting a divorce. Reality has been hitting me harder then ever. You'd think that after two months of knowing that your parents are going to be separated, you wouldn't be in such a big state of shock, well, for me it's still sinking in. I mean for crying out loud, they were married for 21 years...just what the fuck went wrong? I still don't get it. Any-who, my mom is forcing me to go to therapy, just because of a recent discovery of some not-so-pleasant thoughts I've been having, and how fucked up I really am..

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Bull to the Shit (In need of some major advice)

Why is love described in such an ignorant way, when all it is, is bull shit? When you stop loving someone, all it does is hurt everyone, in the end...Sorry..I'm just really fucking pissed off right now. I'm also confused, sad, and in a state of shock. Yesterday, when my mom was driving me home from the doctor's office, she stopped at some park on the way, and we sat in the car talking. Well what were we talking about? Well let's just say it started off with, "Your father and I have been going to therapy." Once she said this to me, I was so lost, and I didn't know what in the name fuck she was talking about. So I just sat there blankly and gave her the "but why?" kind of look.

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Thank you MCR

My Chemical Romance,

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My MCR fan page! (ADMINS NEEDED)

Hey everyone I made an MCR page a couple months back on Facebook, and it doesn't have many likes, so can you like it for me? :3 Also, I need more admins! So comment if you want to be an admin below! I'll message you the link to my FB profile so I can add you and then I'll make you an admin! C: well here's a link to the fan page!

https://www.facebook.com/imNotPsychoIJustLikePsychoticThingsGerardWay

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Trapped in a world i can't escape

I feel as if I'm trapped. Every day I wake up, fearing of going to school, but then I again it's the only way I can see my friends. School sucks, and all it is, is stressful to me. My teachers pound us with homework, tests, quizzes, and everything is so relentless. My parents are exremely strict with me and my grades, so they have high expectations for me. But lately I've been slacking off and my grades are going down because I can't handle all of this school work I get. This has never happened to me before and now I just feel so stressed out, and my asthma gets all funky when I get stressed. On top of the stress my parents constantly give me lectures about how I have to step up my game. I've been trying and even when I get the highest grades I can get they always give me this look and say "you can do better than that" when really I've been trying my best. It just gets so tiring...

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Mask on a Scarred Heart (i guess you can call it a poem)

So lately I've been feeling pretty insecure of myself, and well, I happened to write this...I hope you all enjoy, and it's my first attempt at a poem

Every day we pass by people with different faces
Each face on a person is an illusion in some cases
You might pass by a person who’s smiling, with their eyes sparkling bright
On the outside you can see that person is laughing, socializing, and lifting up the spirits of the ones nearby

And you might see that person with a cheerful, and positive attitude
You also might see that person constantly making light out of the sweet moments too
But on the inside, that person is falling apart like an unstable piece of paper
It’s holding itself together, but ready to break apart for later

It was once a piece of paper that started out smooth, and wrinkle-free
Then that paper got ripped, torn, and turned to debris
Just like when we are born, we start off with happiness

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I need some advice

So my confidence is pretty damn low at the moment. The guy I like was telling me about a girl who he thought was hot and my self esteem went down. I mean him and I talk a lot to each other and I thought he liked me but I guess not. Oh well..guess it''s time to move on? Mehh, I need some cheering up. ;_;