vdc jess's blog

well... he is frozen looks like he feel nothing
that makes me hate myself cause I can't change the things
I'm jealusy cause girls wants to show him love and I can't do that thing cause I'M his best friend haha
He is shy and pretty. And I'm waisting my time with him, I can't see other boys I just.... can't... he is like the only one for me.
I lost him cause I couldn't answer when he wanted and answer by me so we stay like this
I never meant to be his friend for ever, since that day he still with his close heart
And I was confused

He sat me apart...
This is the end .( He trates me just like another stranger)(part of a song) ja it's true.
We were very close to each other
And now theres nothing, I'm kind of scare I hate to forget an special and important person for me... He don't care

I hate that.
He is killing me he knows me .

woooooww!!!
thats so crazy
I understand her , just because I'm afraid to be older
but this is to much
I think that we must respect who we are, that we must acept that we are dying an that we are growing up
Well I respect her because she wanted to be this way, just the vanity

The reality is that she is a whore but she fell in love with him, the same guy I love.
He is with her, yes, he is far away from me. He told me , Belive me my friend I'm not interest in her. I like the girls who are just like me, I gave him a smile, and I thought. Am I like him?
Later He told me , I noticed that you are just like me. " I know you so well", you know me so well.
She is so far away you know. and thats one fact I can't change, and I can't feel good with her.
And He described me. It seemed that he wanted me to. That day we were on a concert by 1:00 pm to 2:00 am so long and was a great time for me. We fell down to the floor, He looked to my eyes He was beside me. Later he looked at the sky, and I looked. Defotnes played some songs , a lot of people there, thousands, and He and me so far from them. Only talked about our lives and with facts we said I love you.

Since the first time I met him I knew He was the only one for me.
A lot of troubles. And I'm still here without courage, just like him.
2 years and We are just good friends.
The first time I saw his big eyes. I thought perhaps this is the reason. Just... perhaps.
Every day He was there. Night and day. We spoke hours by internet , when we couldn't be together.
Later I came to school,and He was there waited for me.
By now I'm nothing for him .... I know. Just a friend but after all were diferent.
I want to kiss him at the end of everything

He's gone...
He mets someone there, he tought me some pictures of her by mail , she is so pretty
My dad told me "you need to go out"but he can't understand, perhaps yes , only if I explain him all but...maybe he'll bother me if he knows. My dad knows him, and he told me "he is in love with you and you're in love with him" and he begans to laugh :(
I'm in love with him, and he can't undesrand how much he means to me.
He is with her now I know.... that makes me feel sick and insane. I want to get up of this bed and go out with my friends but I can't, maybe if I try but I don't want to try anything today
I can't wait to see him realy, and that day He'll turn to other part and push me away it's always the same,and later I'll go away and He 'll say to me "why you don't talk to me today? and I 'll say oh I had a lot of things and go out of school. Belive me i'ts always the same when he come back.

IT'S SATURDAY AND ...HE's GONE
SO I WANT TO STAY HERE
I DON'T WANT TO GO ANYWHERE
HE ISN'T HERE
I WANT NOTHING
PERHAPS I JUST WANT ME TODAY...