ToxicTempest's blog

So, my house is currently having work done on it, so the internet was down for about 5 days, and I essentially just died of boredom. My life is so sad lol. :D
Anyways, this morning I returned to the magical world of the internet and had a feels-explosion. BOY DIVISION AND TOMORROWS MONEY HOLY SHIT. I love them both so fricken much!
My favourite is probably Boy Division though. I just love the fact that they sing about jeans (I think...) and yeaaa... LA LA LA LA. It's just so awesome!
Whilst I was away I also did some art. :) SO HERE YOU GO! :D
The first one kinda ended up a bit like revenge era frank, it was origianlly just meant to be some punk kid so, yeaaaa. The second is Noodle from the Gorillaz. (yay) The third is just something I did cuz I was bored so, yup. :)
What do you think??? Constructive criticism pleeeease x

I don't understand why everyone is so worried about beauty and perfection. In my opinion, imperfections are what make people more interesting. I don't know if I think this just because I draw people a lot so stand out/different features are more attractive to me, but I just think imperfections are something people need to accept. I know I'm far from perfect. I don't have perfect skin. I'm not skinny. I have a longish nose with a high bridge. It's okay, because that's the way I look, and I'm always going to look like this, so I should embrace it.
I like that I look different, but in my opinion, everyone is beautiful.
Also I drew 2D from Gorillaz. <3

GRYFFINDOR:
[x] You've never done drugs.
[ ] You have a lot of friends.
[ ] You get along with everyone.
[ ] You love soccer.
[ ] You love baseball.
[x] You're into writing and art.
[x] Favorite music genre is rock.
[x] You believe in "innocent until proven guilty" theory.
[ ] One of your favorite colors is red or gold.
[ ] Good grades at school.
[ ] One of the worst things you can do is lie.
[x] You plan on going to college/a school.
TOTAL: 5

HUFFLEPUFF:
[x] You're content with mostly everything in your life right now.
[x] You laugh a lot.
[ ] You like to follow trends.
[ ] Politics suck.
[ ] You love to swim
[ ] Water polo is awesome.
[ ] Pink is one of your favorite colors.
[ ] Black is morbid & depressing.
[ ] You're an optimist.
[x] You're very emotional.
[ ] You haven't made fun of anyone this month.
[ ] Loyalty is the MOST important thing in a relationship.
TOTAL: 3

RAVENCLAW:
[ ] You're depressed to a certain extent.
[x] You love to read.

Anyone out here who likes Pixies? Yup. That's about it :)

I just wrote a song, opinions would really be appreciated. Please, just tell me what you think, or anyways you think I could improve it.

It's easier to hate you
cuz loving you destroyed me
either way I can't breath
You drowned me
Filled my lungs with lead again

And I would do anything and everything
but it'd still be the same
I can't be near you
but i need to
I need you to
to kill me quickly

So tomorrow
I'll be gone without a trace
And we can be strangers
You don't need to recognize my face
And I'd still know you better than you do

But it's easier to hate you
cuz loving you destroyed me
either way I can't breath
you drowned me
filled my lungs with lead again

ABOUT ME YAY

1) Age you get mistaken for? People think I'm a couple years older than I am. Im 13, 14 in December.

2) Have tattoos? No, but I want lots when I'm older.

3) Have piercings? No, and I don't want them.

4) Best friend? Beanie. I've know her for about 3 years now, and she saves my life everyday. She's like the thing that keeps me grounded, but we also go crazy and shit. In short, she's amazing and I love her. I also absoloutly love my sister to bits. She's one of the most awesome people I know, and the best thing is that she's the only person I know I'll always have. Everyone eventually leave, but she'll always be my sister.

5) Relationship status? Married, Separated, engaged??? I'm single and always have been.

6) Biggest turn ons? Tight jeans!!!!!

7) Biggest turn offs? Normality

8) Favorite movie? Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street

In my science class I sit next to a guy, lets call him 'Jack', who is kinda mean to me. I'm in a class seating plan so I HAVE to sit next to him.
So here's what's going on
He does things like kick me under the desk and poke me in my collar bone. I know this isn't too bad (well the kicking hurts, but its not the worst), but he can be really nasty.
I know I'm not skinny, I'm around a size 8-12 in clothes sizes (depending on the store) and I'm not exactly flat chested, but I also know that I'm not fat either, but I can't help but feel bad when 'Jack' pokes me in my side and makes nasty comments about me.
I told my friend Beanie (yes that is her actual nickname) and she decided to confront him. (I wasn't there when this happened.) She confronted him and 'Jack' said he did because I'm annoying. Then after he left his friend said he only did it because he had a crush on me.

Today whilst in the car my sister and my mum were having a conversation which I wasn't really listening to, so I don't really know what they were talking about, and when I chose to listen in I heard my mum say 'You know Hannah (my sister), we can't all be special'.
As I put my Ipod headphones on and as their conversation faded away to the sound of MCR I had a revelation.
I only have one life. One life to live in and I never get to do it again. This is the only chance I ever have to do anything, and then I'm gone. And my life might be normal. And my life might be mediocre. And I might never get to be special or amazing, or make an impact on the world or anyone's life or ANYTHING. Once I'm gone I will eventually be forgotten.
So today I made a promise to myself. As of today I will do AT LEAST one, special, amazing thing. Whether it be making a piece of art, blogging, writing a poem, making someone remember that they are amazing and beautiful. ANYTHING.

A couple of days ago I bought the book 'The Perks of being a Wallflower', It's really, REALLY good! I love it, AND The Smashing Pumpkins is mentioned in it :D

Okay, so Mama is probably my favourite song of all time ever, I just love the theatricality of it. So I just finished this Mama drawing. So whatcha think? Constructive criticism would really be appriciated <3. And what's your favourite MCR song? :)