ToxicRevolver's blog

Ok i love mychem alot but seriously guys..... a blinking watch. They couldve picked a better item to sell for example pants to match the jackets orrrrr a selection of mock lazer guns butttt no a blinking watch.... for 125 bucks! thats insane. -facepalm- i dont understand people in this world. *sigh*

I need pills.... I want them now. sadly i ran out now i dont know where to get em. Im killin for some codeine. Makes everything bearable.

Forever Kis$ed
Under Byte
miss.chief
Star
Nitro Nightmare
Amplified Suicide
Alkaline Child
Stardust Specter
the fullmetal killjoy
Cherry Bomb
krooked klymene
razorblade disco
marshmallow grenade
Retro Rebel
Ash americana
pyro child
Vinyl Rabbit
Agent Revenge
Lurid Kid
White Crayon
Killshot Delirium
Exterminator Cola
Ritalin Raygun
Honeybee
Lethal Toast
Retro Glory
CosmoQueen
heart eater
Pinky Pain
Dirty Birdy
Butane Brat
Jazz Bullets
Tempo Thief
Jett Light
Handguns Galore
Cyanide revenge
Toxic Timebomb
Adrenaline Revolution
Mad bullet
Phaser-Laser
Atomic Enigma
Silver Peacemaker
Stellar Manx
Trigger Trickster
Apocalyptic Sunshine/Vampire Moon
Tachyon
Ghost Liquid
Lady Madness
Kolorful Cascade
Electro Bullet
Blast KIss
Adrenaline Raygun
Huggy Beardoll The Deadly Butterfly
Morning Glory
Super Cyanide
Innocent Bystander
Cellophane After Blood or CAB
Asylum Kitten
Happy Venom
Electric Thrust
RayGun Ransom
SolarSkates

Last night.. Worst night of my life. I committed suicide but wasn't successful. Mom Pulled me out of the tub because she saw the blood and heard my cries. Now I have stitches on my arm and now i have crisis hospitals calling me and my school. Only if i was successful. I wouldnt have to worry anymore. No one can help me.

HOLY SHIT MAN!! HAPPY FUCKIN BIRTHDAY <3

MCR WAS AMAZING!!! i wish i could see them again!!

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE TONIGHT!!!
ive been waitin for a long ass time now!!!! WOOO!!

Im freaking out right now....
MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE TOMORROW!!!
im so fuckin excited!

Have any of you killjoys had a hard childhood? i know i did.
My whole life has been a secret. Ive put up a big wall for many years.
Ever feel so alone and in pain you cut yourself. well that was a sign i needed help.
I went to my school counselor and we are working together to tell my parents about how i felt about everything thats happened.
Im so terrified that the secrets ive been holding in so long will break up my whole family.

Ever had someone in your family that abused you. well i hope you didnt.
The pain is still to much to bear and i just have to accept it.
The only thing that runs through my mind is that my counselor said im a victim and ive never been able to mourn my childhood.
and shes right.

The walls are breaking, and i cant hold it up much longer.

Im addicted to the killjoy forum!! i love it XD!!