Toasty's blog

Broken Walls

Walls built long ago
to show my starving soul,
guards stood side by side
on the steep walls,
ready to fight and defend
never to let go.
Pain the enemy
regret and fear
anger the warrior
grinning from ear to ear
my heart, the lady to protect
and my soul too scared to show
the enemy has broke the walls
and let the sun shine through,
the shadows fleeing with quick haste
leaving me to you.

Smile

Your smile is like acid
burning through my mind
tearing through my heart
like it's yours not mine
maybe it's just that
my heart belongs to you
i try to wash the acid out
i don't know what to do
the damage to my heart is done
still pain inside my head
when you put your hand in hers
my heart just feels so dead.

Miss #4? : http://www.mychemicalromance.com/blog/toasty/desert-instinct-4
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"We're ready." Twisted said loading up into the car. "Ok, good. i'll take Sigh's car and you guys follow me, it'll be a few minutes i'm not done recording in my notebook. i'll honk when i'm ready" Shadows said jumping in.

Have you ever puked out of your nose? it really freaking hurts. all i did yesterday was sleep and listen to MCR.... still recovering... still not feeling good. urg.

Natural Hair Color:
[ ]Redhead – $80
[X]Brunette – $75
[ ]Blonde – $50
[ ]Black – $15
[ ]Bald – $5
[ ]other-$0
Total So Far: $75

Eye Color:
[ X]Blue – $100
[ X]Green – $75
[]Brown – $50
[ ]Hazel – $25
[ ]Other – $15
Total So Far: $250

Height:
[ ]Over 7′ – $200
[ ]6’8? to 7′ – $175
[ ]6’0? to 6’7? – $150
[ ]5’5? to 5’11? – $75
[x]5’0? to 5’4? – $45
[ ]Under 5′ – $25
Total So Far: $295

Age:
[ ]30 to 40 – $100
[ ]25 to 30 – $75
[ ]20 to 25 – $50
[ ]18 to 20 – $25
[x]0 to 18 – $15
Total So Far: $

Current Education:
[ ]PhD – $500
[ ]Masters – $450
[ ]Business Owner – $800
[ ]Bachelors – $400
[ ]Associates – $350
[ ]In College – $300
[ ]High School Graduate – $250
[X]In High School – $200
[ ]High School Dropout – $100
[ ] Jr. High – $50
[ ]What is School – $Bankrupt$
Total So Far: $510

Birth Order:
[]Twins or more than twins – $300
[ ]Only Child – $250
] First Born – $200
[ ]second born-$150
[ ]Middle Child – $100

I love every single one of you. You guys make it awesome to wake up in the morning and go on living. The fighting will happen we all have a fight in us that makes us Killjoys. But it's time to reunite! Let's be Killjoy(S)! not just a singular Killjoy. We can do it, we are family. i love you guys!

~Scattered Bullet!

Miss #3? http://www.mychemicalromance.com/blog/toasty/desert-instinct-3
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The rush of just picking it up, the secret of it all. The metal in my fingers. I grip it tightly, roll up my sleeve and stare at the scars. So many tears, so much blood. I take a deep breath. Exhale while i bring it across my skin. The pain erupts from the self-inflicted wound. I can’t breathe, the blood starts to pool, i wipe it away watching it run and smudge. I take another breath. A little deeper now, maybe the blood and pain will kill the pain of him. A rebel tear escapes my eye, I reach up with my bloodied finger and wipe it away. I look into the mirror, the blood smeared across my cheek. So beautiful, the reddish orange smudge. I look down, taking in the blood running across my arm. I smile, going in to this euphoric white place. i fill up the tub. It’s time. I leave a simple note “I love you, it’s not your fault.” And slide into the water, fully clothed. I turn off the water and breathe deep. The sharpness of the cut, the tender hiss that comes from my lips. The next arm now.

Miss #2? http://www.mychemicalromance.com/blog/toasty/desert-instinct-2
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Miss #1? http://www.mychemicalromance.com/blog/toasty/desert-instinct-1
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ok, so on Sunday we practically rushed all night, then i had to clean like half of the store cuz that's what you do when you close lobby.. well.. i kept being stopped.. someone would come in, i had to sit in the office while a till was being counted... i would get into a conversation.. something would come up. so my General Manager was like "get out at nine" it was nine when she said that.... i hadn't even started cleaning because our rush wasn't done.. and people kept coming in until 10 when our lobby closes.. i didn't' get out until 11... i also didn't clean and stock well enough... so i got written up again.... third strike, second suspension... the kind you don't come back from, especially when you boss doesn't like you... FML. i'm saving for a trip, have to get a new phone, and pay for bowling... i'm screwed...