thementaldisaster's blog

Hey you! You! Yes you,with the face!
I hope I have you guys attention. This is mad important.

ATTENTION ALL KILLJOYS! IF MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE EVEN REMOTELY SAVED YOUR LIFE PLEASE READ THIS!!!

Okay. As you all know, MCR has saved countless lives with their music or just their words. How fucking awesome is that?
So we need to kinda show them our appreciation! We NEED to this. They fucking deserve it! So please message me with a "Fuck yeah!" or a "I'm in!" And then I well tell you what's gonna go down and I'll give you the email of the lady in charge.
Come on! Do it for Frank and Mikey and Gerad and Ray!
You know you want to...

Yours psychotically,
Jab

Hello awesome people.
Today I did the whole "Very Much Alive" shebang. It was fucking awesome. I found undercover killjoys. Can't hide from me!

Yeah so le me walks into my Lit teacher's class. He was the only one in there. I ask him if listens to MCR. He says yes and I fucking squealed. Then I show him my awesome wrist. He shoes me his. Instead of seeing red and black, I see real, faded scars on his wrist and forearm. He was probably expecting things to get awkward. Wrong! I gushed about how he was a survivor. He laughed. And I then proceeded to tell him that he was now my favorite teacher. He laughed again. Yep. That was the highlight of my day.

In other news, I have a fucking potty mouth. I'm surprised I can keep it under control at home. 'Cause i'm a fucking badass.
^^^ That made no sense.

Yours psychotically,
Jab

Yours truly wants to remind you that tomorrow we must CONQUER!

Yours psychotically,
Jab

Yours truly wants to remind you that tomorrow we must CONQUER!

Yours psychotically,
Jab

Okay. I don't have anything in particular to talk about.
Hmm,well it's about that time you guys. That's right! Finals! Oh joy...
In other news, something totally bizarre happened yesterday. I was singing(I use,that term loosely) Thank You for the Venom and them I just burst into tears. I almost never cry, so when that happened I was...I don't know. I felt weird. I've been avoiding that song lately. Don't know if I might spontaneously combust or something.
And the last bit of news I want to share its that I still miss my friends. Its been over six months and I still miss them. Its kinda bittersweet that we still talk but never see each other. Sucks...camel feet.

Yours psychotically,
Jab

It's me again. I just wanted to give a big thanks to all the killjoys out there who commented and messaged me when I felt my absolute worst. You guys are fucking awesome. I love you guys! It's good to know you're there when I need you, or your shoulder.
You guys are my hope, my purpose.
When I wrote that post, my mind was jumbled as fuck. Nothing was where it was suppose to be. So if I made it seem like I'm suicidal, I just want to let you guys know I'm not. I know that that one act would hurt and crush so many people. I won't lie and say it has never crossed my mind. But I would NEVER do that.
Back to the topic at hand, thanking these amazing killjoys who picked me up when I fell, gave me their shoulder, held my hand, and wouldn't let me get blasted to dust. I just want to THANK YOU for being there.
CRAZIE
PSEUDONYM BLUE
SIDTASTIC007
KRISPY
ZOMBIEKIL097
ASTRONOMICAPOCALYPSE
Angela

That was sappy as fuck. I should write Hallmark cards...

Earlier this week I literally felt the fight leave me. I just don't see the point...of anything. I catch myself thinking that I wouldn't care if I died tomorrow. That's fucking horrible.
It's just...
Gah. Is this depression?
Is that what this is?
I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I just don't see the purpose of all this. I don't see the purpose of life. What's my purpose?!
I'm fading. I'm fucking disappearing.

Why am I here?

Yours psychotically,
Jab

Earlier this week I literally felt the fight leave me. I just don't see the point...of anything. I catch myself thinking that I wouldn't care if I died tomorrow. That's fucking horrible.
It's just...
Gah. Is this depression?
Is that what this is?
I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I just don't see the purpose of all this. I don't see the purpose of life. What's my purpose?!
I'm fading. I'm fucking disappearing.

Why am I here?

Yours psychotically,
Jab

Uh, what's a tumblr?

Yours psychotically,
Jab

I'm baaaaack!! *insert evil laugh*
Home sweet home, is how the saying goes. Hmm, let's agree to disagree.
Let's gush about my FABULOUS time in small town Ozark, Alabama where everybody knows everybody's business, blah blah blah. (Check out my last blog to get the full gist of it)
DAY 1