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In the Rumble of things...

;) Hello my MCR Family!!
Long time no blog. xD
So, ultimamente, (Yes, that's me being Spanish right there. xD) I've been getting ready to go to college. ^_^ I've had one whole year to save up all the money I could and hopefully, I'll have enough for at least one year of school. :\
But you know what's been bugging me?
The lack of MCR accessories for my phone. I have Hello Kitty charms and sea shells with glow in the dark sand, my birthstone and a Jack Sparrow charm as well... But no MCR related thing! >_< Ugh!
I need something for my phone to show off my appreciation for this band. >_> I could make something, but... I don't trust my skillz. xD So, I'm thinking some Killjoy gear for my phone would be awesome. ^_^ Maybe some mini rayguns or masks! YEAHH!
Well, that's my little rant for today!
Thank you guys for your support and for reading!
Arigatou gozaimasu!

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Please and Thank You.

You know that feeling where you simply wish to be left alone? Like, all utterly alone? With nothing and no one but yourself and maybe some bottled water? ... I don't feel that way. ^_^ Sorry, Not today.

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Just my rambling... :(

You know that lack communication? I miss it. I want to connect with someone. I need someone. But I’m not ready to accept that. NOPE. Nor am I ready to admit that, hey, I really can’t handle living alone. No no, I’m not living alone right now. I’m actually in my room, in my parent’s house. But… I still miss that connection. A connection to another human, or being… I don’t care. I just want to connect. Like, feel needed perhaps. Missed. Wanted. I mean, I’m not feeling worthless right now just empty. Very empty. A glass goblet set out in the middle of desert. Utterly empty. Heh, but I’m stubborn. I won’t change that. I don’t know how or if I can. OR maybe I’m just lazy. Actually, I’m just afraid. As usual. I’m always afraid. Something will go wrong. It always does. And I’m not ready to handle that. If I were relaxed and chill around everyone, I would be messed up. I’m too… selective? I don’t know. I just can’t, don’t trust people as easily as I probably should.

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Ugh. Life's great. >_<

Well, I'm grateful for the new full-time job I got and all but... I hate the time. >_< Gotta wake up at 4 to be there by 5. On the other hand, I do get out at 1.30pm, so It ain't so bad except for when you have to go to school afterward...

Which brings me to this question: Have any of you held a full-time job and attended college?
Any tips for me? Were you a full-time student as well or just a part-time student? ^_^ ???

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Well, I guess I need advice. :)

So, Recently I've noticed a dear cousin of mine has been acting very withdrawn. He keeps to himself and initially has no goals. Oh, and he's somewhat afraid of, how do I explain, "stepping" out into the "real world". I understand that. It was so hard for me to get a job. xD I'm not a social butterfly so meeting new people is a challenge for me. Anyway, he's always in his room. And has considered ending his time. He doesn't know that I know this but I know. My question is: How can I help him? I'm going to start hanging out with him more and try talking to him. Not about his issue just about random junk. The crazy weather. The noobs that play games and end up killing their whole team (no offense if it's you. xD LoL). Or about YouTube videos. You know? Random junk. It doesn't help that his "friends" don't have the best of goals, or ANY goals for that matter. But, eh, I don't think he's strong enough to leave them behind and start over.

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Woo! Finally. ^_^

Yes. It's glow in the dark w/ black letters that say: PARADE.
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Haa. Get it? Parade in black letters... Black Parade. xD Yeah, It's lame. Oh well. I love it. >_<

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Repost for Live Chat. ;)

Zero Gravity
M/A/C/H/I/N/E S/C/R/E/A/M
Forever Kis$ed
Under Byte
miss.chief
Star
Nitro Nightmare
Amplified Suicide
Alkaline Child
Stardust Specter
the fullmetal killjoy
10. Cherry Bomb
krooked klymene
razorblade disco
marshmallow grenade
Retro Rebel
Ash americana
pyro child
Vinyl Rabbit
Agent Revenge
Lurid Kid
20.White Crayon
Killshot Delirium
Exterminator Cola
Ritalin Raygun
Honeybee
Lethal Toast
Retro Glory
CosmoQueen
heart eater
Pinky Pain
30. Dirty Birdy
Butane Brat
Jazz Bullets
Tempo Thief
Jett Light
Handguns Galore
Cyanide revenge
Toxic Timebomb
Adrenaline Revolution
Mad bullet
40. Phaser-Laser
Atomic Enigma
Silver Peacemaker
Stellar Manx
Trigger Trickster
Apocalyptic Sunshine/Vampire Moon
Tachyon
Ghost Liquid
Lady Madness
Kolorful Cascade
50. Electro Bullet
Blast KIss
Adrenaline Raygun
Huggy Beardoll The Deadly Butterfly
Morning Glory
Super Cyanide
Innocent Bystander
Bulletproof Romance
Silent Bullet
Toxic Muck

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-Sigh-

Ugh. Just plain UGH. I'm tired. I ache. And it'll be the same thing tomorrow.

I started this new job and, in my stupidity, decided to go in at 5am to get out at 1.30pm. BUT it's hell. No one in my house goes to bed early enough for me to sanely wake up at 4 to get ready and be out the door by 4.50. :( I don't want to but I think I'll have to change my schedule (again!) and ask to go in at 6 instead of five. :\ If you were my employer/supervisor, would you hate me?? xO

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^_^ Look Alive SunShine!

God Loves You! :) So smile!

Sure you may feel shitty, down, or worthless but that's because you're focusing on the bad. You're focusing on everything you want or feel you should have. On everything you're missing. Why do you think coveting is one of the deadly sins? Tch, because it brings misery in the end.

So, I guess my point is this. Smile kids. S-M-I-L-E. :) Even if it's a lazy, fake, "I'm-just-doing-this-to-please-you" smile...Hey, it's a start!

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In other news :(:

Wow. So today was pretty eventful.... I guess. I got a better job. As in: A job that offers 40 hours of work and not only 12 hours per week, max. BUT Because of this job, I have to cancel some plans I had for next week. :( But the worst part isn't canceling, it's not being able to inform the person early enough. And that, for me, is worse.

I'm the type of person that usually likes, prefers, a week's notice before making plans or canceling, so having to cancel 3 days before the date planned makes me feel all sorts of guilty. Sigh. She's cool with it, but then again, I'm guessing it's because she doesn't want to make a big fuss about it. Which I totally appreciate because, if you couldn't tell, I honestly feel bad.