Jessieateyourbabies's blog

my friend, (let's call her s) s is depressed, tried to commit suicide the day before yesterday, on the verge of anorexia, and cuts herself. she's become numb. i had no idea what that had meant before now. she won't believe a wod i say when i tell her i don't want to lose her. and i'm terrified i might. Before she never cut, and was as happy as happy can be. shes also a MCR fan, though i don't know why that's significant. But i really am afriad to lose her! she was the very first killjoy i met in real life, and she's my best friend! i don't know what to say or do to help her see things in color again. she's just...numb. i'm really scared and don't know what to do! and i can't go to her house, because she lives in stamford, CT and i live in wurtsboro, NY (don't know why i was so specific there...). please, somebody give me advice! i just want my best friend back...

does anyone know any good how to draw manga books or videos, or whatever? because i'm dying to learn how to draw manga, but i've had no such luck. so any help would be greatly appreciated! ^.^

~~Splash Bubblez out~~

ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT? A fucking rat dog bit me.

WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR BEDROOM? nothing now cuz i'm painting. but normally, drawings and sticky notes

WHAT DOES YOUR MOBILE PHONE LOOK LIKE? invisible

WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO? My Chemical Romance, Billy Talent, Mindless Self Indulgence, Sick Puppies, basically shit that no one's heard of

DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN? 8:47 a.m.

WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW? To have a job (i'm 13, but i'm looking for a under-the-radar job)

WHO DO YOU MISS? my friend Stephanie. she kinda randomly disappeared

IS ANYONE IN LOVE WITH YOU OR HAS A CRUSH ON YOU? my crush's girlfriend loves him. no one ever like me...

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU KISSED? my friend alexis

WHAT'S YOUR MIDDLE NAME? Lynn

THE BEST TV SHOW EVER CREATED? ANIME!!!! except for dikodda. that's a real dumb one

THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO? Silver Sun

holy shit, i'm so fucking ready for shit, but you gotta be prepurred to read this. are you prepurred? good.

okay, so you won't BELIEVE what happened taday 8th period. so i'm singin "the end" in the locker room, cuz we just came back from gym. so i'm singin, and dis hall monitor says "can you please be quiet!" so i pause, and start singin even louder! then i sing at her. so i think she's gone and i say: "dis stupid hall monitor wants ta be all obnoxious!" or somethin like dat. "i hope she hurrs dis, cuz i hope she does!" i finish. so of course she does. so dis bitch walks over and says "stupid hall monitor? is there a problem?" so i think about if i want to be a goodie-two-shoes and keep quiet, or say what's on my mind. i go with choice numba 2. so i say, "yeah, there IS a problem." and so i continue. "i don't need you being all obnoxious and saying "please stop sining."" Now i wasn't pissed because of my voice or singing, i was pissed cuz she was being rude. so she said, "i didn't say that." so i'm like, "yeah you did." and so she's all "it was a joke.

this is for anyone who needs it. whether you believe this or not, your fucking awesome. you were put on this earth for a reason. whether or not you know that reason doesn’t matter. i know you don’t believe this, because when i was depressed, i didn’t either. but you have to get through it. even when you think no one believes in you, i do. and if you open your eyes, you may see that there are others who believe in you as well. Even though it seems like you’re falling down into a bottomless pit, you should use the wings you didn’t know you had and fly. You should always sparkle, no matter what. sparkle in a way that only you can. don’t be afraid to be yourself. everyone else is taken. Show the world that you aren’t beat and you can’t be broken. because if you really look for it, you can find the strength you need. also, you don’t have to do this alone. I know it may be hard, but reach out for help. tell a friend and work your way up to someone who can help. take baby steps.

that's my friend's name. she had posted a video on tumblr saying she was going to kill herself. so i devoted my time to convince her otherwise. and guess what? it worked! i'm very happy i won't be losing my friend anytime soon ^.^ i was really scared i'd lose her.

~~a worried Splash Bubblez out~~

You can answer more than once, and you can add more questions if you want.

SONGS FOR...
...go to a party? Planetary (GO!) and party poison by my chem
...a date? Surrender by Billy Talent
...fall in love? The Only Exception by Paramore
...cheer yourself up? Na Na Na by MCR and Viking Death March by Billy Talent
...a rainy day? Westcoast Friends and Fuzzy Blue Lights by Owl City
...go mad? Shut Me Up by Mindless Self Indulgence or I Never Told You What I Do for a Living by MCR
...relax? S/C/A/R/E/C/R/O/W by MCR
...do sport? You're Going Down by Sick Puppies
...cry? Dear Agony by Breaking Benjamin or Cancer by MCR
...remember good times? The Kids from Yesterday by MCR or Red Flag by Billy Talent

MOVIES FOR...
...a cold day? Sucker Punch
...see with a boy/girl? The Losers
...see with your family? Medea's Big Happy Family
...see with friends? any Pirates of the Caribbean or Hugo
...remember your childhood? any Whinne the Pooh or Disney's Alice in Wonderland

okay, so i sent this dude a messege and i completely made myself look like a fucking weirdo. though, i guess i am, but still. man i make shitty first impressions. i seriously said: "we're gonna be friends and you don't have a choice." i'm a fucking creep. but i'm not! i'm just socailly awkward!.... ah fuck it, i am a creep. it's no wonder i'm still single.

~~Creepy Splash Bubblez out~~

i have this necklace i always wear. i know it's kinda stupid, but i wear it because it's special. it wasn't past down from anyone, there's no gradious story behind it. it's just a silver key, a grey empty locket, and a ring i got from one of those quarter machines all on a green piece of ribbon. and the locket and the key came from two different necklaces. it's weird, whenever i wear it i just feel better. i guess this was a pointless blog, but i knew i could share this with you guys and not be judged. i know, i'm a freak, but....i dunno. i'll stop talking now.

~~Splash Bubblez out~~