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Sad :(

*Sigh* my mom really hates me. and like, it makes me sad because i love her sooo much. but she only "loves" me because "god says she has to." i don't wanna be the girl that hates her mom, but i hate her treating me like i'm less then my brother and sister. she's always hating on me and labeling me, and it really sucks. she thinks everything i do is dark, or dirty. yeah, i'll admit not everything i do is age-appropriate, but it's not like my fucking life revolves around it. but yeah, i'm thinking about going back to the way it was before i appreciated her. 'Cause it seems like that's where our relashonship is headed. *sigh* oh well. i'm just tierd of trying to make her proud of me, 'cause i know whatever i do it won't work. i am, and always will be, the "bad child."

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J

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Hey Guys

Well, i really hate myself. i really do. Like, i look at the girls in the magazines and wish i was them. then i look at my sister and wish i was her. she's so much prettier and smarter and everyone loves her, while i'm just me. i want to be like her. i just an ugly nobody. and i'm a freak. and a loser. and a disapointment. i'm basically everything i hate about society. i hate my exsistance. like, i wish i were someone better than me. i wish i were good at stuff and pretty. but yeah. that's all.

-xoxo
J

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My last Killjoy Blog

hey there, tumblweeds. It looks like our time has come. So fire your last shot and kill your last Draculoid. Because the Killjoys are leaving. Time to loosen your boots, put away your gun, and remove your mask. I had so much fun running through the deserts with you all, and our adventures will not be forgotten. Stay Dirty, and keep it ugly. This is Splash Bubblez, out for the last time.

~~Splash Bubblez~~

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Am I the Only One?

I feel like i'm the only one who's gonna miss Danger Days. Everyone's like, "YAY NO MORE DANGER DAYS!!!! BRING ON THE DARKNESS!!!" and i'm all for the new album being dark, but i just feel like i'm the only one who's gonna miss the color. Danger Days was my second favorite album. So, am i the only one who's gonna miss the color?

-Jessieateyourbabies-

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Where'd the desert go?

i'm really excited for the dark new album, but i'm honestly gonna miss the color a lot. like, i was kinda hoping they would run with it a little more. but oh well. STILL EXCITED AS FUCK FOR THE NEW ALBUM. oh, and i fucking love the new layout!

~~Splash Bubblez out~~ (should i even use my killjoy name anymore?)

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This Place

this place right here. i love it. we're a big fucking family and we all love each other. sure, we have our fights, but family's fight, but we forgive too. we don't judge or hate (too much anyways) and we accept (whether we like it or not). i just love being apart of a fucking awesome family. I love you all. you're all amazing.

~~Splash Bubblez out~~

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I'M SO FUCKING EXCITED!!!

OMFG!!!!! My dream is finally coming true!!!! I'm starting a band and i already have three members! Ah, thank you Cherri Bomb for inspiring me to start the band! I guess you don't have to be an adult to do everything after all! i just hope everything goes well X3
~~Splash Bubblez out~~

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I need help helping my friend

i'm trying to convince her that life sucks when your depressed and being happy is so much better. that even though it may not seem like it now, life is worth living. but no matter what i say, she listens, but she said she likes being depressed. and that's not healthy. and she's such an amazing beautiful talented, awesome kind loving caring person and my best friend and i only want the best for her cuz she doesn't deserve anything less (and yes i told her all that). I just love her too much to see her suffering. i cant stand seeing those i love suffering. So can someone help me help her? She's been to 4 winds (a psych hospital) 4 times so that obviously isn't working. but i just want her to be happy! because she's just so fucking amazing, and i want her to see it. i love her soo much and i just want the best for her.... she's my best friend and i won't stop helping her until i die, i swear it!

~~a scared Splash Bubblez out~~

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I Think My Mom Hates Me

So, yeah, i think my mom hates me. like, she told me after this whole cutting thing, she was just done with me. like she literally said "i don't care, i'm just done with her," during therapy. now she barely gives me the time of day, constantly criticizes my hobbies, (tumblr, anime, shit like that), and she just seems to give off this, "i don't like you, but i'm forced to love you because God says so" vibe. And she also thinks that i perpously say things to piss her off. like, i'm bi, and i was telling her about this girl i fell for at 4 winds, and she said, "I know you're trying to get a reaction out of me, and it's not working." like, no, i just needed to get it off my chest! and today, she was listing holidays and she said Halloween. i chimed in and said, "Halloween's my favorite!" and she said, "No one cares! we know your saying that because you think it bothers us because we're christians, but it doesn't work." and i was like, "No, i just wanted..." and i just stopped talking.

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FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

FUUUUUUUCK!!!! i know i'm probably over-reacting, but i only have ten more days until highschool, and i am so fucking scared!!!! new school, new classes, new teachers, same people, and that isn't a good thing! i have no classes with my friends, except for one and we aren't even that close. and i'm not exactly the cool kid at school. actually, i'm a freak. i fit in nowhere. my friends don't even have lunch with me, so it's up to the library. god, i'm so scared. but i do this thing where i imagine the situation much worse so that when it happens the outcome doesn't suck so bad. so that's what i'm doing, and normally it works. hopefully this time it works. but i'm still so fucking scared! i have no idea where anything is, and i'm afraid i might get lost, and someone might beat e up, and i know i'm gonna get bullied again this year and SDFVBJWADVAJVBFHVBFHVBHDFAVB!!!!!! *sigh* alright, i'm calm. gah, at least i'll have MCR to help me through the next four years.
~~Splash Bubblez out~~