Spiderr's blog

Forever Kis$ed
Under Byte
miss.chief
Star
Nitro Nightmare
Amplified Suicide
Alkaline Child
Stardust Specter
the fullmetal killjoy
10. Cherry Bomb
krooked klymene
razorblade disco
marshmallow grenade
Retro Rebel
Ash americana
pyro child
Vinyl Rabbit
Agent Revenge
Lurid Kid
20.White Crayon
Killshot Delirium
Exterminator Cola
Ritalin Raygun
Honeybee
Lethal Toast
Retro Glory
CosmoQueen
heart eater
Pinky Pain
30. Dirty Birdy
Butane Brat
Jazz Bullets
Tempo Thief
Jett Light
Handguns Galore
Cyanide revenge
Toxic Timebomb
Adrenaline Revolution
Mad bullet
40. Phaser-Laser
Atomic Enigma
Silver Peacemaker
Stellar Manx
Trigger Trickster
Apocalyptic Sunshine/Vampire Moon
Tachyon
Ghost Liquid
Lady Madness
Kolorful Cascade
50. Electro Bullet
Blast KIss
Adrenaline Raygun
Huggy Beardoll The Deadly Butterfly
Morning Glory
Super Cyanide
Innocent Bystander
Cellophane After Blood or CAB

THIS IS REAL NO JOKE! xD
Me: Mooom, why isnt my pizza done yet?
Mom: Calm, down. It's been for 6 minutes, just wait.
Me:I DID MY WAITING!
Mom: Oh jesus christ, not ths again.
Me: 12 YEARS OF IT!!!
Mom: Will you stop?
Me: IN AZKABAN!!!
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Plus, when Im 18 and my mom asks me to do something:
Mom: Clean the dishes.
Me: Dobby has no master! Dobby is a free elf!
Mom: Oh jesus.

Random shit:
Im single again.
Dane came back after weeks.
Bubbles from Power Puff Girls was voiced by MORGAN FREEMAN.
Dont play a king, You might just end up with a joker.
Everyone's beautiful. (Yes you!)
I've had suicidal thoughts the last few weeks.
Im listening to Kesha as a DARE.
I feel drunk.
Im tired as a hippo in mating season.
Im secretly a bat. :P
You don't care.
I have four uncles.
I love unicorns. But I like dinosaurs the best.
Rhino's r cool.
Let's vandalize a cop car.
I hate Nicki Minaj.
Im done.
Lets vandalize a cop car,
~Sp1d3rr Cyan1d3
(My real name is Madd5ie. The 5 is silent x{P)

Sooooooo. How you guys doing? Well I'm just dandy :DDD. And this time, NO SARCASM! YAY! I feel like Jenna Marbles right now! But anywhoo ^_^, I know you guys probably don't give a rat's furry tush but......Guess who's got a boyfriend? That's right! This girl! Finally, something GOOD in my life! I've been really depressed lately but NOW, I have the mind of a girlfriend. That means I'm slightly content with my life! His name is.....(no not Dane another crush Ive had for a while.) Richard. Now, instead of El Chubacabra, (It means beast or monster and Im pretty sure that's how u spell it! :/) they call us Raddie. Or Madichard. I hate when they do that but Rich finds it funny. Ok, so I'm not going to show you guys pics because (In my mother's words,) "a stalker could come hunt us down and rape us." ^__________________________________^ That's my whale! His name is "Marty"! Say hi, Marty! Oh your so cu- wait wha...? Oh, that's right, talking about my boyfriend!

A - AVAILABLE: Yesh.
B - BIRTHDAY: None yo' biz.
C - CRUSHING ON: See "E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO:".
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: Fanta.
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: Dane
F - FAVORITE SONG: Scarecrow by MCR
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: Gummeh WORMS
H - HOMETOWN: Newfield, New Jersey. and Philadelphia, Pennsylvania. (Parents are divorced. :/)
I - IN LOVE WITH: No one.
J - JUGGLE: I wish.
K - KILLED SOMEONE: No.
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: 7 days from NJ to CA
M - MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: Strawberry! (without the little chunks of strawberry.:/ )
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 0
O - ONE WISH: To meet MCR.
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: I don't call people.
R - REASON TO SMILE: None. My life sucks.
S - SONG YOU LAST SANG: Teenagers by MCR
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 7:45am
U - UNDERWEAR COLOR: Blue
V - VEGETABLE(S): Celery.
W - WORST HABIT: Used to smoke a bit, but not anymore. (alot.)
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: For my Teeth.
Y - YOYOS ARE: FUN

So, for a few months I've been trying to decide exactly what my killjoy looks like. Alright well let's get started:
Hair: Shoulder length (It looks like Shaggy from Scooby-doo :/) , Side bangs, brunette dyed blood red.
Mask: Down to my nose(like Party Poison's), light red with a bright yellow stripe across the eyes.
Shirt: Bright yellow tank top, with bright red splatters.
Jacket: Brown jacket with yellow collar on the inside. Goes down to thigh area. Yellow on inside with killjoy symbol. (See "Killjoy symbol.")
Pants: Bright yellow skinny jeans with threee rips in the knee.
Boots: Red knee high converse.
KIlljoy symbol: Old timey key with with a X through it. It's on the jacket too.
Height: 5'6
Weight: 117bs.

The video has all of the make up but these three are my favorite! (That aren't bloody and gorey!)

I hate acting like everything is okay. It just makes me think. What's out there to stay alive? I mean, I'm not gonna kill myself, but if were all acting like everything is ok....Then were not showing our true colors. And if noones showing their true colors, then what do we have to live for? Yes, I know suicide is shit and that's another reason why im here. Where I am today. But it's just like if a homeless person wasn't asking fo money. He needs it, but won't ask. We feel it, but act like everything is okay. It would be awesome if one day all the killjoys got together and just.....you know....sang "Im Not Okay" until our brains couldn't take anymore..... so that's just a little update....Im thinking about life. Just thinking. I'm not gonna kill myself, but Im just thinking.
OH and I'm changing my Killjoy name from Spiderr Key to Spiderr Cyanide. I just felt Spiderr Key didn't fit anymore. So yah.
Let's blow up some shit,
~Spiderr Cyanide

BAMBOOZLE. Thats the source of my probelms. WHY? WHY do u ONLY take 18 yr. olds! Ive been dying for them to play somewhere close to where I live and my mom promised to take me and now I can't go bc ITS A NIGHT CLUB!!!! All I wanna do is meet them! Why does it have to be so hard???? I dont care if I meet ONE. I just wanna meet them. Especially Princess Fro Fro or Gee! If the Hunger Games prize was to meet MCR, I would let them be legal AND participate! I just wanna meet one! That's all! WHY BAMBOOZLE!!!!! I love you, but Y U NO LET IN 14 YR OLDS!!!!! To meet, or not to meet. One will never know. Monica said that I'm over-reacting and in the end I'm probably not gonna meet them anyway. But when I die, I wanna say : "I HAVE MET ONE PERSON FROM MCR/ MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE!!!! NOW, I CAN REST!!!!!" Then, I'll die. One reason I haven't killed myself yet is bc of them and the fact that I refuse to die without meeting them. IMMA STAY PUT GOD! (Even tho I don't believ in u!!!

Anorexia
[x] You hate your body.
[x] You have starved yourself.
[x] You have low self esteem.
[x] You use laxatives.(I used them once and have never taken them again because they taste HORRIBLE!)
[x] You need to be skinnier.
[x] People always say you're skinny, but you think fat.
[ ] People think you are way too skinny.
[x] You skip at least one meal a day.
[x] You limit your calories or check them constantly by compulsion.
Total: 8
ADHD
[ ] You are hyper most of the time.
[x] You barely pay attention to anything.
[x] You cannot cooperate with people well.
[x] You seem to never sit still.
[x] You talk all the time.
[ ] You need attention 24/7.
[ ] You aren't very shy.
Total: 4
Bipolar Disorder
[x] You can act wild at times then the next you are severely depressed.
[x] You are very irritable.
[x] You barely get any or no sleep.
[ ] You have very high self esteem at times.