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Ok so I'm not really having a good week and I just want someone to talk to. It's just I'm falling apart and I can't talk to my best friend about it because she's ditching me possibly for good. I am also under alot of pressure and I just feel useless. So yeah if anyone wants to talk or something message me if you want.

Ok so there is this guy my friend is dating. Ok before you stop reading this isn't a stupid little 'I have a crush' thing. It's a lot different. So this guy gets so much crap all the time and he feels unwanted. He self harms and my friend recently broke up with him but just got back together with him. Ok so I've always felt kinda idk weird whenever I see the stuff he does to himself. Today I just wanted to cry. He had stuff all up and down his arm. They were all fairly deep to so that made it worse. I just I don't know I had the song it for the hurt and stuff written on my arm today again and he saw it read it smiled and said he's happy at least someone at least kinda understands. Dude I found out he's really nice (not in a weird way we ARE just friends.) But yeah I actually want to kinda help him without sounding weird but I don't really know how to without writing a song or whatever and that would sound creepy. So yeah goodnight.

Today rocked sorta. So not really many Killjoys in my town but whatever all that are, are my friends anyways. Ok so the whole writing on the wrist and arm thing. I did it at like 5am so I wouldn't forget and it turned out weird. But cool. Anyways I'm going to do it again like tomorrow. Ok so I sound weird but seriously I know how much this band has helped people so why not. And does anyone know if a sharpie is dangerous if you screening get ink on the skin above a vein or is that just if you have a scratch and you write on it?.?.?.

Today rocked sorta. So not really many Killjoys in my town but whatever all that are, are my friends anyways. Ok so the whole writing on the wrist and arm thing. I did it at like 5am so I wouldn't forget and it turned out weird. But cool. Anyways I'm going to do it again like tomorrow. Ok so I sound weird but seriously I know how much this band has helped people so why not. And does anyone know if a sharpie is dangerous if you screening get ink on the skin above a vein or is that just if you have a scratch and you write on it?.?.?.

These chapters are rather short so together they would make the adverse chapter length I usually write. I'm so sorry for not posting it earlier it's just a lot of stuff came up and I didn't feel like posting the chapter. Anyways last chapter left off with Neon Bunny and Midnight Moon getting their hair dyed and Party Poison and Kobra Kid wanting to talk to them.

Chapter 5

Ok so about December 10th are we supposed to have one red line on one wrist and one black line on the other wrist and should it go all the way around the wrist like a bracelet? Please answer I would love to know because eight now I'm kinda clueless.

Ok so I'm soooooo sorry for not posting more if it. I have the chapters done it's just I don't know I don't really get enough time to post it. I mean yeah I get time to do the usual ranting thing but typing the story out kinda takes awhile. Anyways I will have TWO chapters posted TOMARROW maybe even THREE because I've been lazy and had a lot of homework that alll of it still isn't finished but it's been awhile. I know I have like 3 readers but at least it's something. And if anyone is wondering me art skills (which aren't to good.) I might get a few pictures posted after I get a new camera (so after Christmas.) Well that's about it. Well also I'm kinda oilseed off and so is the rest of my school. Ok so this kid (well more like teenager.) he got into a car accident and passed away on Monday morning and his friend was with him but is ok.

I just listened to Thank You For The Venom for the millionth time. I'm not sure if you guys get a nice feeling when you listen to the song but I do it's kinda like the song that tells me they honestly do care about their fans unlike so many other singers now a days. The course "give me all your poison and give me all your pills. And give me all your hopeless hearts and make me ill. Your running after something that you'll never kill. If this is what you want then fire at will." I see from that, that they care and don't want u's to hurt ourselves in ANY way. I don't know why but if I ever get a feeling that I'm worthless I always run to MCR and writing or drawing. I'm serious I have cried in the bathroom at school during lunch before I knew of MCR. I still sometime cry in the bathroom but I'm listening to MCR the whole time not caring who thinks whatever.

So I just heard Zero Zero and it's ok I guess. I mean it doesn't really sound like something the band would play but.... GERARD IS HIS OWN PERSON IT'S A SIDE PROJECT!!!! I know Frank also released a song but guys it DOES NOT mean they are splitting up. I don't know everything but I think we would all be able to see if the band split up. It was a kinda good yet weird song but I think it's kinda good. I mean yeah when I first listened to it I thought it wasn't good and kinda to much like pop music but then I listened to it again. And guys its pretty good I guess I mean it sounds kinda like Danger Days beat up One Direction. Ok sorry if you like 1D I don't really like them but it sounds like it was kinda like that. And don't ask why I used 1D as an example because I personally don't know. But it kinda has the whole still kinda Danger Days part in it... just slightly messed up. (:

Ok so some people wanted to see some of my artwork I've done. Ok that's cool I shall post pictures of it as soon as I find my camera. I'm not the best artist but people says it's kinda good so I'll post it later if I can. (: