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Happy New Year!!!

2013 is here and I hope it's gonna be good. The songs of my year are... Pay For It - Mindless Self Indugelnce and This is How I Dissapear - MCR. what I do is I choos the dogs that I listen to on my iPod at midnight and the song that brought it in. So as my cousin's bestfriend who does all this voodo stuff I'm going to have an interesting year. My resolutions are.... 1. Learn to play guitar better. 2. Kick off the band I'm fronting and singing in. 3.Run more so I can succeed in Cross Country maybe in highschool. 4. Do more stuff with my friends such as mall trips. 5. Get taller. I'm not really that short but I want to be taller. 6. Draw more and read more. 7. Get on the A or B team for basketball even though I'm not exactly loving my team. 8. Get rid of my depression. It sucks. 9. Get better grades and not give a f*ck what people think of me.

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You Don't Know a Thing About This Life chapter 9

I promised ya so here you go. In Chapter 8 the group split up then the girls got into a little trouble which involved dracs and Korse.

Chapter 9

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Just a few things before 2013. (please read if you want to I guess)

First off I would like to thank everyone that has ever helped me in any way. I mean I've had depression (I still do) and it sucks. Normally when it's the worst when I post on here it doesn't sound to good. Anyways there has been to many people to name that have helped. So thank you so much. You guys are one of the reasons I don't hurt myself, that and I know it becomes addicting. Second. Thank you to the people that write songs on here. I don't know why I enjoy reading them but I think that they are beautiful and you guys have a lot of talent. You guys encourage everyone here from to keep living to try out for the school musical. Ever since I came on this site I've gotten more courageous and I've tried out for solos and stuff in my school choir even though I have too much of a girl rocker voice to get the soft part. (dang it) (: it's new years eve were I am so Happy Birthday to anyone who has a birthday soon.

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Just a few things before 2013. (please read if you want to I guess)

First off I would like to thank everyone that has ever helped me in any way. I mean I've had depression (I still do) and it sucks. Normally when it's the worst when I post on here it doesn't sound to good. Anyways there has been to many people to name that have helped. So thank you so much. You guys are one of the reasons I don't hurt myself, that and I know it becomes addicting. Second. Thank you to the people that write songs on here. I don't know why I enjoy reading them but I think that they are beautiful and you guys have a lot of talent. You guys encourage everyone here from to keep living to try out for the school musical. Ever since I came on this site I've gotten more courageous and I've tried out for solos and stuff in my school choir even though I have too much of a girl rocker voice to get the soft part. (dang it) (: it's new years eve were I am so Happy Birthday to anyone who has a birthday soon.

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The truth is...

I love all of you guys. Not ina weird way but you guys are like my family. You guys are always there for everyone and you guys don't judge. I see how MCR are proud of us. We act a lot better than most fanbases, we help each other out, we just act like a family. We all have stories even if yours wasn't like some. Another thing that makes us even more better we dont fight. I mean I have never seen an argument between any if us here. This is like the one website you can post without Internet trolls. Thank you guys for everything you do. That applies to everyone including the band. And to ANYONE having a bad day and don't feel like it will get better. It will get better I promise just hang in killjoy the ride isn't over. You were put on this earth for a reason so find that reason and take it. Don't hurt yourself ever you are soo much better than that. That voice in your head saying you can't do it is a LIE! Hope you all have a nice day or evening depending on were you are.

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Congrats I guess

Well today my cousin had her baby.... She just graduated highschool this year an her and her friends made a pact. To get pregnant at the same time. Well congrats to her I hope her and her boyfriend are doing well. (:

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Congrats I guess

Well today my cousin had her baby.... She just graduated highschool this year an her and her friends made a pact. To get pregnant at the same time. Well congrats to her I hope her and her boyfriend are doing well. (:

I'm so sorry for the wait for chapters. I couldn't find a ending for chapter 8 and chapter 7 is short so I combined them. I hope whoever reads this enjoys it. Chapter 5 and 6 ended with Neon and Midnight becoming Party and Kobra's sidekicks. Then Neon ran out of the room and tried to get away. Party stopped her and cheered her up.

Chapter 7

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I'm alive and SOO pissed off!

Ok so I'm alive my Internet connection wouldn't work anymore so my dad had to get like a card thing or whatever. Anyways that isn't the point I'm not mad at you guys. So I was on FaceBook and I hate the site now well at least my page. So I was just reading stuff that my people posted while I was gone and then I got a flipping message asking if I'm doing basketball this year. Umm yeah I play basketball if I have nothing going on at school. I love art and stuff more and I honestly don't give a flying fuck about P.E I participate but my school is WAY to cheap to heat the gym so it's freezing all the time so some days I don't change out and I just don't lile changing infront of the girls in my class. Ok I just feel all weird changing infront of them expresially since most of them are like super skinny and I'm adverage.

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This is weird but...

I don't know why but I just feel like crying. I've felt like that ever since this morning when I turned on my iPod and listened to some MCR. It wasn't even a sad song but I just u dont know need a hug or something. I hate feeling like this and I've tried texting several people but they are all spending time with family. I just feel like I did something that let the band down. I just feel like a horrible person now and I don't know what to do. All I've been doing for a while is finding things wrong with me. Like well I'm not so pretty, I'm kinda chubby, I'm too skinny, I have no friends, no one cares about me, I have no life, I'm lazy, I cant draw, I can't sing, I'm never gonna make it anywhere. Those thoughts have been going through my mind and I want to give in. I know what depression is and I've gone through it before but I just don't even know anymore. I mess up everything I'm sorry if anyone reads this for messing up the whole nice happiness of the holidays.