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Well today my cousin had her baby.... She just graduated highschool this year an her and her friends made a pact. To get pregnant at the same time. Well congrats to her I hope her and her boyfriend are doing well. (:

I'm so sorry for the wait for chapters. I couldn't find a ending for chapter 8 and chapter 7 is short so I combined them. I hope whoever reads this enjoys it. Chapter 5 and 6 ended with Neon and Midnight becoming Party and Kobra's sidekicks. Then Neon ran out of the room and tried to get away. Party stopped her and cheered her up.

Chapter 7

Ok so I'm alive my Internet connection wouldn't work anymore so my dad had to get like a card thing or whatever. Anyways that isn't the point I'm not mad at you guys. So I was on FaceBook and I hate the site now well at least my page. So I was just reading stuff that my people posted while I was gone and then I got a flipping message asking if I'm doing basketball this year. Umm yeah I play basketball if I have nothing going on at school. I love art and stuff more and I honestly don't give a flying fuck about P.E I participate but my school is WAY to cheap to heat the gym so it's freezing all the time so some days I don't change out and I just don't lile changing infront of the girls in my class. Ok I just feel all weird changing infront of them expresially since most of them are like super skinny and I'm adverage.

I don't know why but I just feel like crying. I've felt like that ever since this morning when I turned on my iPod and listened to some MCR. It wasn't even a sad song but I just u dont know need a hug or something. I hate feeling like this and I've tried texting several people but they are all spending time with family. I just feel like I did something that let the band down. I just feel like a horrible person now and I don't know what to do. All I've been doing for a while is finding things wrong with me. Like well I'm not so pretty, I'm kinda chubby, I'm too skinny, I have no friends, no one cares about me, I have no life, I'm lazy, I cant draw, I can't sing, I'm never gonna make it anywhere. Those thoughts have been going through my mind and I want to give in. I know what depression is and I've gone through it before but I just don't even know anymore. I mess up everything I'm sorry if anyone reads this for messing up the whole nice happiness of the holidays.

Title says it all. I might be an overprotective friend. Ok that sounds weird and I let my friends do stuff with other people that's fine but I just don't like them doing anything dangerous or stupid even though I'm usually the ine with the idea. Yeah I know I'm weird I just hate seeing my friends hurt and I like doing stuff with them and I hate when people leave me out of fun things. Ok maybe I'm not over protective just a weirdo. Whatever.

Ok so I celebrate Christmas but I know not everyone does so HAPPY HOLIDAYS! I hope all of you guys have a safe time even though for me it's not Christmas yet, but other holidays count for people too. Ok sorry that sounded weird. Anyways I have always thought blue candycanes were cool. Yeah the rest are cool but blue were the bomb. I haven't seen any since 2006 the year before my dad's mom (my grandma) died. I just haven't seen them until TODAY. I was at the store last minute Christmas shopping when all of a sudden I see a box of blue candy canes. It's the last box so I grab them ninja like put them in the cart and walk away. Yeah I know weird but I just think there pretty and taste weird (in a good way.) but yeah that's about it. Wait I forgot has any of you guys tasted like think smoothie thing called Odwalla? It's like awesome try it unless your alergic to fruit. If you are allergic to fruit I am sorry fruit tastes nice unless it's purple grapes.

Ok so I celebrate Christmas but I know not everyone does so HAPPY HOLIDAYS! I hope all of you guys have a safe time even though for me it's not Christmas yet, but other holidays count for people too. Ok sorry that sounded weird. Anyways I have always thought blue candycanes were cool. Yeah the rest are cool but blue were the bomb. I haven't seen any since 2006 the year before my dad's mom (my grandma) died. I just haven't seen them until TODAY. I was at the store last minute Christmas shopping when all of a sudden I see a box of blue candy canes. It's the last box so I grab them ninja like put them in the cart and walk away. Yeah I know weird but I just think there pretty and taste weird (in a good way.) but yeah that's about it. Wait I forgot has any of you guys tasted like think smoothie thing called Odwalla? It's like awesome try it unless your alergic to fruit. If you are allergic to fruit I am sorry fruit tastes nice unless it's purple grapes.

Ok so I celebrate Christmas but I know not everyone does so HAPPY HOLIDAYS! I hope all of you guys have a safe time even though for me it's not Christmas yet, but other holidays count for people too. Ok sorry that sounded weird. Anyways I have always thought blue candycanes were cool. Yeah the rest are cool but blue were the bomb. I haven't seen any since 2006 the year before my dad's mom (my grandma) died. I just haven't seen them until TODAY. I was at the store last minute Christmas shopping when all of a sudden I see a box of blue candy canes. It's the last box so I grab them ninja like put them in the cart and walk away. Yeah I know weird but I just think there pretty and taste weird (in a good way.) but yeah that's about it. Wait I forgot has any of you guys tasted like think smoothie thing called Odwalla? It's like awesome try it unless your alergic to fruit. If you are allergic to fruit I am sorry fruit tastes nice unless it's purple grapes.

Ok so a few of my friends and cousins are MAJOR MCR. fans but they never heard of this site. Ok so a while ago my friends nicknamed me mini Gee and my little sis mini Mikey. Ok I don't know why but I guess I'm kinda like Gee in A LOT of ways and my sis is like Mikey. Ok I admit Jessie is like Mikey in like every way all you have to do is meet her but she might not talk much or smile. :/ But I normally push that aside cause it's like 'ok and how much coffee did you have this morning?.?.?' but whatever. So today on my Face Book my cousin posted a thing talking about Gerard and Mikey and half of my family commented thinking it was about us but changed the names. I almost had a flipping heart attack. I mean I think it's kinda cool I'm being compared to my lifelong hero. But then again I'm pretty much being called a guy.

Ok so I am terrified of needles. I just am. I love art and singing I'm also the frontgirl and lead singer of a band called Unraveled Wishes. My best friend is my little sister who plays bass in the band. I wanted to go to School of Visual Arts in New York even before I heard that Gerard went there. I want to help people the way MCR does and I've saved some peoples that go to my school's lives. I adore vampires, and I for some reason don't lile putting posters up on my wall when I was younger because I thought the people were watching me. I get confused and a guilty feeling when I see somebody's scars and I just want to hug them and tell them I care. I suck at guitar. I write random stuff. And I've always had a fascination with ballet but never could get classes. And the Helena video was one of the reasons I wanted to be some dark ballerina when I was 5. I have no idea why but MCR videos made me want to act.