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[Post edited. Please refrain from posting about self harm as it is against the rules. If you feel like you may harm yourself, please seek help from a professional or trusted adult.]

So not many people know his but I have always loved archery. It first started when I saw Chronicles of Narnia but whatever and Lord Of The Rings is also something that I thought was cool cause it had archery stuff in in. Well at a family reunion when I was around 8 they had a little bow and arrow place in the field. I gladly tried it and beat my cousins at it and they continued to have the archery things since until I was 10ish. So it felt like that was the last of bow and arrows for me. Since my parents kept saying when I'm older they would get me a bow and arrows. So for Christmas I got a combat bow and arrow set. But I have towait until the snow clears up to use it and make targets and stuff. And after my parents feel I get good with the combat bow and arrows they are gonna let me get a more advanced bow and arrows. Yeah I'm a dork I know I just have always loved that and music and art.

So not many people know his but I have always loved archery. It first started when I saw Chronicles of Narnia but whatever and Lord Of The Rings is also something that I thought was cool cause it had archery stuff in in. Well at a family reunion when I was around 8 they had a little bow and arrow place in the field. I gladly tried it and beat my cousins at it and they continued to have the archery things since until I was 10ish. So it felt like that was the last of bow and arrows for me. Since my parents kept saying when I'm older they would get me a bow and arrows. So for Christmas I got a combat bow and arrow set. But I have towait until the snow clears up to use it and make targets and stuff. And after my parents feel I get good with the combat bow and arrows they are gonna let me get a more advanced bow and arrows. Yeah I'm a dork I know I just have always loved that and music and art.

So I have found a love for The Lord Of The Rings. Like they are just amazing. Yeah all I did the last 3 days is watch them ok dont judge. I just really live the elves ok and a certain elf is kinda cute.... If you've seen it and are like me you will know whoo I'm talking about... (Legolas played by Orlando Bloom) yeah ok I think he's kinda cute... Shoot me. So funny story. I was watching it with my sister and she loves MCR as well. She points to the dwarf Gimgi ( not sure how it's spelled) well she's says "he reminds me of Bob Bryar! And Frodo reminds me of Frank, and the twins remind me of Mikey and Gerard at times, and Legolas reminds me of Mikey and Gerard mixed. Mikey because of the knees, and Aragon reminds me of all of them, and Gandalf reminds me of Ray. And Golom reminds me of Justin Beiber. (she doesn't like Justin Beiber.) so yeah she's awesome. Anyone else like Lord Of The Rings? And trust me it's like past words to describe how good it is. (:

2013 is here and I hope it's gonna be good. The songs of my year are... Pay For It - Mindless Self Indugelnce and This is How I Dissapear - MCR. what I do is I choos the dogs that I listen to on my iPod at midnight and the song that brought it in. So as my cousin's bestfriend who does all this voodo stuff I'm going to have an interesting year. My resolutions are.... 1. Learn to play guitar better. 2. Kick off the band I'm fronting and singing in. 3.Run more so I can succeed in Cross Country maybe in highschool. 4. Do more stuff with my friends such as mall trips. 5. Get taller. I'm not really that short but I want to be taller. 6. Draw more and read more. 7. Get on the A or B team for basketball even though I'm not exactly loving my team. 8. Get rid of my depression. It sucks. 9. Get better grades and not give a f*ck what people think of me.

I promised ya so here you go. In Chapter 8 the group split up then the girls got into a little trouble which involved dracs and Korse.

Chapter 9

First off I would like to thank everyone that has ever helped me in any way. I mean I've had depression (I still do) and it sucks. Normally when it's the worst when I post on here it doesn't sound to good. Anyways there has been to many people to name that have helped. So thank you so much. You guys are one of the reasons I don't hurt myself, that and I know it becomes addicting. Second. Thank you to the people that write songs on here. I don't know why I enjoy reading them but I think that they are beautiful and you guys have a lot of talent. You guys encourage everyone here from to keep living to try out for the school musical. Ever since I came on this site I've gotten more courageous and I've tried out for solos and stuff in my school choir even though I have too much of a girl rocker voice to get the soft part. (dang it) (: it's new years eve were I am so Happy Birthday to anyone who has a birthday soon.

First off I would like to thank everyone that has ever helped me in any way. I mean I've had depression (I still do) and it sucks. Normally when it's the worst when I post on here it doesn't sound to good. Anyways there has been to many people to name that have helped. So thank you so much. You guys are one of the reasons I don't hurt myself, that and I know it becomes addicting. Second. Thank you to the people that write songs on here. I don't know why I enjoy reading them but I think that they are beautiful and you guys have a lot of talent. You guys encourage everyone here from to keep living to try out for the school musical. Ever since I came on this site I've gotten more courageous and I've tried out for solos and stuff in my school choir even though I have too much of a girl rocker voice to get the soft part. (dang it) (: it's new years eve were I am so Happy Birthday to anyone who has a birthday soon.

I love all of you guys. Not ina weird way but you guys are like my family. You guys are always there for everyone and you guys don't judge. I see how MCR are proud of us. We act a lot better than most fanbases, we help each other out, we just act like a family. We all have stories even if yours wasn't like some. Another thing that makes us even more better we dont fight. I mean I have never seen an argument between any if us here. This is like the one website you can post without Internet trolls. Thank you guys for everything you do. That applies to everyone including the band. And to ANYONE having a bad day and don't feel like it will get better. It will get better I promise just hang in killjoy the ride isn't over. You were put on this earth for a reason so find that reason and take it. Don't hurt yourself ever you are soo much better than that. That voice in your head saying you can't do it is a LIE! Hope you all have a nice day or evening depending on were you are.

Well today my cousin had her baby.... She just graduated highschool this year an her and her friends made a pact. To get pregnant at the same time. Well congrats to her I hope her and her boyfriend are doing well. (: