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Don't worry guys I'm fine!!! I repeat I don't need help I'm fine!!! Ok so today went horrible. I've had my hair dyed black for a while and my friend dyed her hair black first and now people think I'm copying her even though I come up with the ideas but I just have to wait like a day after fir it to happen. But she can dye her hair the same day I come up with the idea so it looks like I'm copying her. And I was called gothic today just because I wore mostly black today... Normally I wear a Korbut color but today I just wanted to do something a little different. Then I was told I was a emo freak and a lot of other names. I just can't win these peoples stupid games. I don't care tonight I'm dyeing my hair back to brown or something I just hate all of this stuff. Plus my mom when she dyed it did horrible so itd kinda patchy so it makes it worse. And people are saying I looked better with brown hair because black makes me look weird.

Ok so my goal in life is basically to save kids lives an help them through anyway I can. I know this sounds weird but at my old youth group we watched a movie called To Save A Life, which is basically about this kid who has a friend that they kinda grew apart and the other kid committed suicide at school infront of a ton of kids including the main character and the kid goes through so much stuff such as getting his girlfriend pregnant while they are in school and popularity and stuff. Then the kid ends up helping a kid not commite suicide and then goes to colllege. That's the best I can describe it now but I like the movie for some reason. But I noticed this one song by The Fray called How To Save A Life and I adore the song it just speaks a lot to me expesially on stuff that has happened. But grayling I said this is weird so bye.

So today was okay I guess. I stepped up for some people getting bullied and almost got punched in the process but it was worth it. I hate seeing kids getting made fun of even though I'm with the kids getting made fun of. I feel much better now I know I've been depressed lately and stuff. Well my friends got my text messages but couldn't reply since they were with family or their phone got shut off so I had some one to talk to. People's just been awesome I guess I've been avoiding a lot of people that are rude to me and ignoring them. I also had a tendency to curse around certain people but I've stopped almost completely it just doesn't sound nice coming from a 14 year old. I made a new friend with one of the new girls today she's awesome. One of the things I'm not happy about is on the last day I accidentally left my Gerard Way project inbthe office and the custodian most likely accidentally threw it away. ): I did really well on the project. Anyways how was your guys day?

So today was okay I guess. I stepped up for some people getting bullied and almost got punched in the process but it was worth it. I hate seeing kids getting made fun of even though I'm with the kids getting made fun of. I feel much better now I know I've been depressed lately and stuff. Well my friends got my text messages but couldn't reply since they were with family or their phone got shut off so I had some one to talk to. People's just been awesome I guess I've been avoiding a lot of people that are rude to me and ignoring them. I also had a tendency to curse around certain people but I've stopped almost completely it just doesn't sound nice coming from a 14 year old. I made a new friend with one of the new girls today she's awesome. One of the things I'm not happy about is on the last day I accidentally left my Gerard Way project inbthe office and the custodian most likely accidentally threw it away. ): I did really well on the project. Anyways how was your guys day?

Thank you to all the people who gave me advice on my head ache it helped a lot. Now it's time for some random stuff. Ok so I'm a major dork but I love LOTR I think most people know what those movies and books are. I just love them ok. Plus I get to see The Hobbit on Friday or Saturday depending on stuff. So I'm super excited. For Christmas I didnt get any MCR merch but that's ok cause I got something a little better. I got a bow and arrow set which I love to death and I've been shooting it outside non stop. I get to get a better one soon but at the moment I need more arrows cause my dog decided to break them thinking there chew toys. He didn't eat anythig sharp but it kinda made me a little mad but he's cute and I never said he was smart. I don't want to go to school tomorrow yet I do. Twitter is bugging me at the moment cause people are putting there self harm stuff on it with picture so I'm not going on for a while. And I'm bored right now. Bye

Random question at the top. And yeah I do have a headache and it sucks.

So I'm in a band and I've been writing songs but I like this one sorta. Tell me what you think and stuff in comments I guess. This is kinda a mash up of all the songs that only had a few sentences in them so this will be part of it I'm not sure which but anyways the lyrics go...
I hate acting like everyone expects me to act. This is my life why should I let you ruin it. I wanna feel the rush of blood in my head. But all were doing is standing here like were dead.

Hey long time no post. Well I posted yesterday I think but whatever. Ok so I LOVE jackets and hoodies and stuff along with bracelets. Yeah I know I sound kinda weird. But I shall take you through a little bit of my life thatight be somewhat similar to some of you people's. Ok so I'm not popular at school (not really surprising I'm not cool.) so I get picked on alot for everything. No matter how much I try on something. And if your me you have to go through alot of depression which sucks amd males the taunting worse. But I do have some friends who are awesome. But anyways I don't really like being seen by anyone when I can and here black is easy to hide in unless if your trying to hide in the snow. :/ but jackets and hoods are easy to hide in, there warm and they are easy to hide headphones I'm while your listening to music. So I've kinda taken up those and I hate big winter coats so I usually have to were long sleeves to which makes it warm in my freezing school.

That's all I really wanted to say. But has anyone saw The Hobbit yet? I really want to ans I get to this weekend maybe. But anyways that's all I wanted to say so sup and bye. (: